January 3, 2013
Here’s a thing, constantly putting yourself through a state of mind where you need to lose weight can be pretty torturing. There are times when I need to remind myself that I’m doing it to stay healthy and of course to look good. I woke up feeling like crap today. Coughed myself to sleep, rolling around in bed, searching for that one position that will allow me to breathe properly. Woke up and spent a good 20 minutes in the bathroom just coughing out phlegm, oozing out of my nose, thinking to myself, how the hell am I gonna survive working out later? I know I’m falling a little short on motivation, and it annoys the shit out of me knowing that my body’s metabolism rate is dropping. So, what do you do when you’re frustrated?
Take a deep breath and think constructively. I’m not sure how others feel about the way I look, but I know these insecurities are self-inflicted at times. There are days when I’ll feel like a million bucks, attractive and happy, but there are times where I feel so horrible about the way I look. I don’t think I’ve ever felt ugly, but I do have a love-hate relationship with the way I look. So I dragged my demotivated ass to the gym, started off with my chest workout, nearly died because I haven’t lifted in a while but it got better progressively. 20kg chest press, 25kg barbell rows for my upper back, and 30kg deadlifts, with 3 sets 10 reps each with minimal rest time. I like feeling strong, and yeah guys do have bigger set of muscles that builds quicker I reckon, but girls can also lift if you’ve muscles. You’re very unlikely to bulk up unless you’re on steroids!
Most people dread legs workouts. I love, love, love it. Did multiple sets of squats at only 35kg, sadly, because I didn’t have anyone to support me today. Didn’t want to get my lower back injured, so I played it safe. I usually get stares from men at the gym, because honestly I don’t look like I can lift and they probably look at me as if I’m some weakling. If you don’t have enough time to work out at the gym, I would highly recommend doing squats because it’s quite a full body workout and you really burn. Squat till you feel like you’re about to pass out. I love that it gets you a nice butt lift, and strengthens your lower back. Btw, I just found out recently that leg press and leg extension workouts on the machine is not good for your knees and it doesn’t really engage your core as much as it should.
And back to my issue about losing weight, the digits on the weighing machine is not gonna be encouraging because as you burn fat, you’re probably building muscles too. So that’s my main struggle, to not gauge based on the weighing scale, and stay motivated. I’m starting a no carbs diet, to speed up the fat burning process and I need to sleep early. Apparently your body will automatically store fat to help you keep awake instead of burning them, so Ellie, SLEEP!
I’m just praying that the weather would be kind to me, don’t rain in the evenings so that I can have my two hour basketball session. I have insane stamina when it comes to sports, so all the running and jumping will really burn. I’m usually a little tanned in Malaysia due to this. Anyway, I hope to achieve the 5kg target by the end of January. I know it sounds crazy, but fear not, I’m eating right, living right, just pushing my limits because I’m physically fitter than a year ago today. Hopefully in time I will be posing in bikinis 24/7 HAHAHA. Just being wishful. I only have two months to really put my body through another shock before my studies begin in March.
I have the largest gym bag with lots of unnecessary stuff in it.
My worn out gym gloves. Oh btw guys, I personally think it’s good to reward yourself from time to time with new gym gears BUT try to stay loyal to your shoes/gloves. They’re like your partners-in-crime, yknow?
It’s nice to know that despite my long hiatus, my readership is growing amazeballs. Oh btw, if you’re a fellow gym rat, trying to lose weight, or share similar issues with me (i.e. being obese, ugly, etc), feel free to drop me an email or a comment. I think talking about fitness can be pretty rewarding for both ends. Who’s feeling fat today???
Sigh, will check in again tomorrow. Cheers.