.a little something-something for yesterday.

Sorry for not updating yesterday,i was having a pretty rough time at home sorting out my plans for my studies.the amount of stress and pressure was tremendously great and that totally tore me down.  i had a pretty darn long day,grabbed dim sum all alone in USJ21, then had lunch at Thai Village,went to Taylor’s and then home. okay, let me just get this straight, i am stressed not because im screwing it up big time,its just a tough decision to make.

one wrong move,i’m sliced.

however,i would not get into any further details about it right here.i am having a pretty rough time here. god knows how stressful it is as of right now.i need a few nights of good sleep,a few tight cuddles, a shopping spree with pearly-u said friday!. and another facial session tht whoops hundreds.

i had lunch at Hartz Chicken Buffet with alvin. and guess what,to all Starbucks lovers,dont let me hear you telling me all of a sudden tht you dont dig Starbucks anymore. yeshh, dad gotten me a booklet of cash certificates for Starbucks worth a hundred bucks,for me la.

i am so thrilled,so catch u around at your latest Starbucks!.  wayne brought his cute lil golden retrieval puppy, less than 2 months old. do u find it cute as well?.

okay,thats all for the pictures today. another bring it to big bro session. have fun reading!.

.Too tied down.

I WAS 19 when I started going out with S. We have our usual arguments but we somehow manage to settle them by having a talk. He has always been there for me and I’m extremely comfortable with him. The only problem is that he’s very possessive. He says that he behaves that way because he cares for me a lot. Although I adore him, I feel suffocated.  

I used to be very out-going, carefree and somewhat popular. I had many guy friends back then and people would talk about that behind my back, even S. He said that he does not want people to talk about me that way anymore, and has asked that I do not meet my friends without him tagging along.  

Recently, he went for a vacation and when he called me he told me that I must be sad and I shouldn’t laugh. He said if I really missed him, I should be sad all the time. He fails to understand that I do miss him a lot but that doesn’t mean I have to be depressed every time he’s not by my side.  

He really behaves childishly. I just feel I don’t have a life. My whole life revolves around him. Again, I do love him a lot but I can’t cope with this any longer. He’ll suddenly suspect me of doing something behind his back and question me about it although I would have been sitting at home doing nothing. Sometimes he really gets on my nerves.   How can I change him? I’ve tried talking to him nicely and explaining how I feel. I’ve even cried many times because of this. I don’t want to break up with him because it’ll just be too hard for the both of us.  

Although he controls me, he is very nice. I can’t deny that. He’s done many things just to see me smile and I doubt if there’s any other guy out there who would care for me the way he does. I just hope that I can get a bit more space. I just want to have an occasional girls’ day-out with my friends and have some fun. I don’t want him to control me like a puppet.  Please give me some advice on how I could make him understand.

.this is what the ”expert” has to say.

Hello? Do you hear yourself? What are you doing in a relationship with a guy who is possessive, suffocates you and tells you to be sad when he’s not around to prove you love him? How can you be “extremely comfortable” with someone who doesn’t trust you?   You wrote to us because you know – in your heart – that this is not a healthy relationship, and it has all the classic signs of emotional abuse.   Here’s a newsflash my dear: He cares more about himself than he does about you.  You are condoning his behaviour – by being his puppet and giving in to his ridiculous rules. His controlling nature is a sign of his own insecurities, which he first needs to admit to himself, and then learn to overcome. He may be a nice guy in some ways and I know you want to focus on that, but you need to step back and look at the whole picture.   What kind of person do you want to be? Fun, independent and vivacious, or someone who has no personality, no opinions and no self-confidence? 

 ouch,that was sure a slap on her face.  i dont know how this can relate to my relationship. now i need to learn how to control my anger and how to release them. everyone has their very own problems and im sure tht there are people who’re just like me out there.are there?

this weekend is my aunt’s birthday. so be sure to catch heaps of photo’s and of course,a long post!. dearest pearly,i know it a sad sad thing of this such a short notice plan. i promise,i will not lose touch with you,besides,im still around Subang rite? fendy,srianti,simone,fyfa,yenn,thasha,merry,annisa and fellow MUFYian’s,i will miss this great experience and for sure i will remember each and everyone of you. im not gone forever you know? M*,i’ve made my choice.hope you’re happy for me!. alvin,a brand new day,a brand new start,a brand new thing to look forward to. Ziyang and Wengleong, i am starting to get tired of typing on my miss notes with no friggin reply. how are you donovan?.

anyway i guess thats all the medicine i have for you today.toodles!.  <3

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