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Wednesday June 4, 2008 |
June 4, 2008 |
Once beaten,twice shy
so who is it this time!
good day everyone.
i am currently suffering from some major exhaustion,perhaps due the late nights for the past two days & i’ve got a guest living my house now. She’s my Accounting tuition teacher’s daughter Puan Kuah,Chia Wen who is currently living with me for two nights. I don’t think i’m in any position to disclose any thing or any possible issue about someone else’s family matter,but i’ve been keeping sane lately packing up my schedule till i drop dead tired after dinner and went straight to bed earlier. 
And so i spent my last night giggling my hearts out sleeping next to Chia Wen tho that sounds blardy wrong but hey i enjoyed every moment of it. Upon realizing how time flies,and she couldn’t stop asking me about Colin wtf. It did bring up some close memories about how it used to be (i didn’t say it was the fulamak my past damn bombastic) but it was total chaos. 
I could still remember how much of a rebel i was,and how i’ve completely turn on the ‘i don’t need one bit of your help‘ button which turned out deadly. 
Learning that its important to put the past behind you,or you’ll never be able to walk on with your heads held up high (okay not too high ) but its all god’s will i guess. Who would have thought that the girl who literally missed 120days of schooling days in Form 5 would fucking work her ass up to the architecture line & once beaten,twice shy. 
I took more than a year to recover,and pick up the broken messed up pieces & be able to stand tall to brush whatever’s necessary aside, oh you’ve got no idea how hard that was. Guess i’ve won the battle,by a mile for now.
You can never tell the difference,
oh no you can’t.
It was a phase,a life turning point deciding if i end up being one wrecked up spendthrift spoilt brats who doesn’t do anything else but wastes everything and continue running away from home till the day she meets an accident so bad along the Federal Highway (i know its damn random but) that she only realizes it on her bed of death. 
OR i was given a second chance to drive myself up and down the wall, drop that mile high ego & just pick myself up, saying fun time its over. 
Let me tell you, who is this tall dude posing next to some car and is currently all the way in Perth now,perhaps reading this. 
I met him when i was in Form 2, and i was way shorter then, my shortness level was critically enhanced whenever i’m next to him (trust me,even 5inch stilettos is no use) 
. He was always there for me, as a dear good friend, a brother & perhaps someone who sorta tried to get me out of the tangled up mess but i guess i was just too much of a rebel then. Attending scout campfires,cooking my fucking awesome tom yam at camps & boy it was priceless. 
I remember how i was so sucked into basketball which resulted me looking like an indian like omfg, and how i would train with the boys looking like an infant next to a giant wtf.
i’ve been told this once,that changed my life forever.
**based on my own version and interpretation lah okay don’t laugh.
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One day there was this fisherman who got stuck in the middle of the sea.
He believed that God will help him to get him out of it.
First,there was this other boat who offered him a ride back to shore,but he said “No, god will help me.”
Then,thankfully a helicopter rescue team was sent to save him,but then again he said “No,god will help me.”
In the very end,he died of starvation & got swept away by the strong waves.
Then he landed in heaven,still holding on to that very thought that “God will save me.”
Then God said, i’ve sent help to save you, but you never had the will to save yourself.
God only helps those who is willing to help themselves.
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Then i realized how many helping hands i’ve declined throughout the years, and thankfully i was saved. And dear Ming Wei,that tall dude above was one of the many people i’ve brushed off. Whether you like it or not, it all comes down to one thing, don’t ever give up even when the world gives up on you. Speak some sense into yourself, at times i wish i could tell them how sorry I am, and that includes Colin as well. Ming Wei OMG Ya Allah timkai when you’re so far away only i write about this.
Everybody deserves a second chance baby. 
good night loves.
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hey hey i’ve been reading your blog and am glad you dropped by my blog =) (you did right?hehe according to the Nuffnang thingy) and surprisingly you blogged abt chia wen haha my close close fren in sec school..and hmmmm what you guys doing sleeping together la *raise eyebrow* HAHA =p