i never thought how this would even leave an impact on me.
the sun was shining so bright on the other side of my horizon.
till i heard a phone call this morning,a phone call from the other side.
“hello,i need you to go pick up both your brothers from school.”
im at the hospital she said,i agreed in confusion.
as much as i’ve hated the way she mistreated me all my life.
despite those vulgar words thrown on my face since i was merely three.
i never grew fond nor hate towards you.
till this very moment,each and every single time i took a step back.
i have always loved you silently,afraid that you might return me with a slap.
you made me grew up in anger,fear and thus develop such defense.
hoping that it’ll shield me when it all falls down.
you yelled at me with some mother fucking language.
no friggin’ respect even when i was a child.
when i was away from home,you told them so.
telling them to just let me leave and be happy with it.
its not that i had a choice to choose you.
the choices i made was never mine.

get it?

never thought this phone call would ever come.

you painted my white cloth of childhood with a splat of black,brown and blue paint. when i hit age 16, i had nothing to hold on to at home. thank you for driving me away over and over again repeatedly. the only choice i made which belonged entirely to me was the fucking rights to choose my boyfriends which all landed themselves with bulleyes now. i was being sarcastic you see.

anyways,does cancer really have cure? 

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