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I don’t know if this would bring any further interest to any reader, feel free to skip this section as this isn’t about the food, fun, parties, love, hate or etc. It’s a little something something that I felt like sharing with those who gave a damn,of course.

I’m not trying to get sympathy nor people to come up to me asking all about this, I believe, in every family, they each have their own problems/issues/agendas. Right?. Im not saying tht im the black sheep of the family,I grew up being hated by my very own grandmother,ever wonder how that would be like?

At the very tender age of 3 years old (as I remembered), I realized something that had gotten pretty obvious since then tht she hates me,for no particular reason. I mean its like,if im some sort of drug addict who killed her whole family then I understand. The fact is that,there was nothing I’d done.

She’s been living with my family since I was 3 years old till today,and man,everyday is hell at home. Imagine rebelling at age 7? She treats both my younger brothers like “gold” or “precious gem stone”. She doesn’t call me by my name just so you know. She started calling me “chow hai” when I was 10 years old,as I remembered.

 Wonder what my parents did about this?

 There was of course some hoo-hoo and haa-haa’s here and there thru out the years. After all she’s still my grandmother,I cant be shooing her away,can i? You know what really ticks me off nowadays? She treats my friends like rubbish. She has ZERO manners,slams words right on their faces (that explains why am I so sharp when it comes to slamming) ,I hated her for that. She is like so bloody different from my mother.

What happened to all those genetic bullshits ?.

This has instilled some sort of defensive mechanism in myself, I always have tht little thinking cap put on all the time. As though im preparing myself for a timed bomb. Get what I mean?. Some said that I had two faces ,let me throw this question right back at you,don’t you too?

In life,sometimes each and everyone of us will definitely put on a mask at times depending on situations and people of course. So don’t bullshit me with tht apparent angelic self of yours.It isn’t a bad thing after all. Its reality,as long as you’re as true as you can be to people you really care and give a damn about,that’s perfecto !

I’ve learned and found courage thru Alvin , that there is so much more to seek out there,some much more to learn and enjoy,some many people who has gone thru numerous phases in life,there’s so much more. So for those who’re in my unforgiving past, its history,long and be gone. I’ve ditched it in a bottle then  buried it in my dog’s hole out in the garden.

I’m a changed and different person altogether now. Finally things are falling into place,and no more tall tales,no more cover ups. alvin had been there for me for the past 413 days,thank you!.

my i.miss.u list

srianti,when will you be back here?

sue-yenn,are you having the time of your life there?come back soon to take ang pow!

kee weng,are u in Melaka?

M*,happy oinky new year!

fendy,faster get your ass back here laa.

fyfa,its gonna be damn jam back here from penang dear.

simone,fai tit come visit me laa.

kah ho,thursday is coming!

toodles!. <3

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