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Tuesday August 19, 2008 |
August 19, 2008 |
I Am Enough & Am I Enough.
First of all,I hope you’re all having a better day than myself. 
I have been spacing in and out occasionally,and i’ve not been behaving like my usual self lately; its not like you readers would actually get it anyway but I am in need of a pat on the back seriously. This is gonna be another post to rant my heart out,so pleasure reading. I just got home after watching Wall-E and as i was leaving the cinema earlier getting into the closest toilet, i overheard a group of kids under the age of 10 (hints Yee Wa,yes they’re round!) going on and on immitating the Eva & Wall-e which instantly cracked up a smile. 
I actually reminded myself to write this down on my blog tonight,so i guess the aftermath of a movie like that really does work its magic on you don’t you think so?
I have dedicated all my time & life for way too long to make a change & hopefully grow up and out of it. You know how frustrating it is to keep reminding yourself how important it is to change your ways to make the people around you happy. Even when it comes down to a point where people start neglecting your undying efforts to go over and over again changing at all cost; just to keep someone happy. There is no room for me,for at least its now a one way thing because I am the one who needs to grow up, to learn how to figure things out, to deal with acceptance & ignorance and I finally realized how much of a waste it was considering how things resulted. I never had the chance to really express the way i feel because I know that nobody really cares; I’m the one making all the mistakes obligated to apologize and yes I am sorry.
The truth is, I can’t keep up with it.
I am just that stupid girl who
never get things right the first time.
Is it written all over my forehead that I am of a certain way? You tell me that I made a mistake, I’ll fix it & it was never in my nature to refute. In fact the best things in life are free. Some people may never realize the importance of making mistakes,and correcting them but hey I do. But why push me to my limits and put me through such torture? I have faith in people,in myself & how great things might actually turn out to be when you really believe in it. That was the only thing that kept me going on all along. Nobody is born a killer,a rapist,a robber,a liar, and so on; we’re all made that way through the process of growing up. So can you please start accepting the fact that I went through hell, more like I put myself through hell with my own wrong doings; therefore I have never stopped being foolishly alert 24/7 of my actions but sometimes i just lose it. When have I ever,EVER not try to explain myself to make you understand.
“CAN SOMEBODY JUST REACH OUT
TO ME AND TELL ME
THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
THAT YOU’RE ENOUGH?”
Please stop taking every piece of me and putting it onto that hot flaming frying pan to cook the life out of me. I am sitting her fuming with heartache and tears rolling down my cheeks hoping that somebody out there knows that I am not feeling okay. I hate being in such a position where I am writing it out here expressing myself to anonymous readers which I doubt would understand.
Am I Enough?
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seems like a hard time..hope you’ll feel better..
How can I not feel better after hearing this from you?
@jenvelandres -
youre prettyyyyyy