- aLviN -

Posted 1/2/2007

when i sit down alone at a quiet place,watching people going about with their ordinary lives..i start to wonder..what kind of life am i leading now? nothing too exciting but nothing boring..its complete..i know when i wake up everyday there is someone there to give me a hug and a morning kiss(before brushing my teeth that is)there is always someone that i can count on when the going gets tough..that person is you..i love u not just because ur beautiful or because guys dig u..i love you because of the way you make me feel and the way u make me feel about myself..and there are those things that science cant explain…those feelings..that i will take a bullet for u no doubt..i know i will die for u and u for me..thats love to put it in short words i guess..dear..i love u..happy anniversary..muahxx

-missy’cheerio- Posted 1/2/2007 when everything seemed to be in a mess.when it feels as tho everybody has got tht something something against you,you were always there.in and out,regardless of all the trouble tht you’ve gotten yourself into.you never left and you just stood right there telling them all to just bring it on.you’ve changed so much as a person and the alvin tht i know now is someone with a motive in life,someone who has goals to chase,dreams to achieve,a home to build,a wife to marry!. *shy* love always finds its own way out of trouble.love takes time.tolerance and patience.commitments. im thankful tht you’re not some playboy’s or mutha fuckers who doesn’t give two shits about anyone.nor are you someone without charisma and attitude.you’re perfectly perfect for me. lets live this life realistically together.fuck those drama queens,brainless assholes and ill bring you to my la-la land. life is meaningless without a guideline and purpose.glad you’ve found yours in me.    o2.o1.2oo6-o2.o2.2oo7*

- aLviN - Posted 1/2/2007 hey baby…its 10:42pm 1st february 2007…its gonna be 14 months being together already..i love u and i will always do..muahxies..my gourgeous, my best friend, my sunshine, my strength..i love u..huggie!!

-missy’cheerio- Posted 1/2/2007 he’s handsome.he’s got guts to take a bullet for me.proven!* there was once we were caught in dilemma back then in april2006. some guy was holding a gun,we hid and covered.sounds rather dramatic,then i knew,this man,would take a bullet for me. its more than just some lovey dovey shits we’re having. a guy who knows exactly what he wants,but when i step into the picture. gelabah!see,im so powderful* i dont know if you’ll be the love for my entire life,but i wouldn’t mind spending it with you.those nights when you ripped my heart apart aimlessly,then sticking it back together using just UHU glue and double sided tape,i doubt tht’ll work. we’ve met for only 10 days.thought it would have been some random fling. now its almost the 400th day together as a couple.omfg!.you made me grow up from a little seed into a beautiful flower as i am now. i gave up in people once,life is worth a second chance.thank you oh-so-much.this isn’t solely about love,its about reaching out for dreams,hitting on goals like wayne rooney,dark pasts,walking down the isle in white tuxedo and a lovely gown,making babies,grocery shopping,money funding for my shopping*,plucking my white hair when hair dye doesn’t work for me anymore. ur mine.ur taken.ur unavailable. saya punya.wo de.my WAN*= mine. love you. dont scold me d la. =( mwahs!.

so classic*

a very special day indeed. but not gonna make a big fuss out of it as we both didnt know it was WOW ANNIVERSARY till like,hey dear,tmr’s 2nd right?. lol. time flies,it really does.

im happy tht there’s this guy,i cant recall what your name is,i hope you’re reading. he mentioned about my previous post on love n relationship. his response was rather flattering,especially when its coming from a stranger (random reader). thank you!.

college was so-so. english was funny.ms helen was on hyper mood today.damn hilarious!. economics i was  99.8% concentrating, but my headache was killing me. thus,i skipped computer science. what a bad girl. met up with alvin for lunch @ Kenny Rogers. its one my favourite hot spots for lunch as their salad combinations there are delicious.

love the new out look* 

couple muffins.  i call them *chocnana*

try it. new flavour.

his*

<3

have you ever wonder what does your father really does out there. this is the list of places he’s doing. all outlets of Starbucks nationwide,Jogoya Starhill,Kenny Rogers Malaysia,Subway,Nando’s,Struddles,Uncle Lim’s,Mc Donalds 1990-2002,Coffee Bean till 2004, and the list goes on. Food courts at The Weld,Mid Valley,One Utama,Times Square namely. designed and planned.

i love you dad*

tmr’s Jogoya food-trip.  wait up for the delicious posts!.

although futsal was so tiring [i watched only =) ], i enjoyed myself very much. Finally, i met xiang chee and mark. weng leong,justin,zi yang were around as well. that made my day. i dont do late nights anymore. *sigh*

i wanna go dim sum. i took that joke seriously.

ng sue-yenn. this is how we became friends.close friends.my enemy.my friend again.my bestie.my life. many would have name this term of on-off friendship as two faced. isn’t this reality when you’re friends just suddenly turns their back against you when a sudden POOF stories about you go flying around the block?. many would have agreed with me. here’s my grandmama story again.

i wouldn’t state my oh-so-interesting past here,but just a lil sneak preview will do. life had been all great till 2003.2004 when it all falls apart. most ppl till today insist and believed in themselves so surely tht i screwed it all up BIG time. the sad truth was,i didnt. i didnt ask for any of those incidents to occur,not one bit of it.

i was rebellious,not giving two shits bout anyone or anything.i pushed everyone who tried to step in. i just cant trust anybody. its so freaking hard facing reality.i’ve learned to just deal with it. most of my apparent friends only gave a damn when things were all woo-hoo great. i wished i was as lucky as alvin to have ppl who do give a damn. no one would believe that this child here lead a life so lucky yet so miserable.you can stop reading now if its boring.

those late nights.fights.gossiping.drinking sessions.partys.have all been buried outside my garden. all thats left of me,is something i once missed out on, a pure relationship with people. i used to run and hide,or perhaps put on a shield building a wall,god knows how thick the wall was. i am so afraid of people who i hold so dearly close to just poof and disappear.

friends you can keep. for my batch,none. except for sue-yenn. it sounds so much as if im isolating myself. the naked truth is,i like being different,not tht sort who screams for attention tho. i love meeting new ppl,ppl who have gone thru enough to put themselves in your shoes. ppl who’re sincere and goes *oh boy,weee* when they meet you.

i regret it oh so badly,i messed my life up for a bunch of cartoons who are still squeeking around my neighbourhood. of course,alvin had brought a whole new world to me. sounds so… *eeeeee* not the world-love kinda thing. its like, there are still good ppl out there. i’ve been meeting many lately. sorry for being so protective over myself,there was NO ONE then when everything came falling apart.

and donovan,you asked about the *bent* fella. how he screwed my life up?. simple.i became the ponteng queen beating most records. getting slaps and beating ups from you know who. dad who uses the belt to wack me on my hips and tummy till it bleeds til i get rid of him,im so dumb*supporting his useless lifestyle of smoking and gaming.what a bimbo!*i cant go on naming all of it.

i make enemies without even knowing or talking to them,like most. but this is only for the case of ppl of year 1988 la. the rest was oh-so-fine. my life’s getting better now as i am picking up the pieces and pasting them back on my broken puzzle.

i just need new positive ppl in my life. i believe. i pray.

toodles!. <3