Good day folks. I hope the previous post on Shanghai Expo during the day did enlighten you in someways, well I wish I could have recalled more from what I’ve observed. Today is gonna be quite a wordy post,considering I’ve been having this heated debate on the inside, struggling to figure out some stuffs related to love. You know I am fully aware about how quickly we fall in love with somebody, and for my case on the Keeper; it almost feels as if I fell and never stood up again.

People don’t seem to understand the depth of our relationship where you know for sure that he/she is the one; and nothing will ever change that fact. I know its quite a blunt statement to state, but the heart never lies, the mind might fuck you up every once in a while; but it all boils down to the things that make your heart skip a beat. Its the tiniest things that count; for example, while we were purchasing movie tickets, he joked and said one ticket for adult and another for child please wtf I was obviously rolling my eyes and tip-toed to state my case.

You know how some guys have this protective thing over their younger partners, not to the Keeper‘s extent of calling me a child of course. The thing is, I have this chipmunk-ish voice thats so high pitched that I literally sound like a tele-tubby at times wtf.

Spent my first half of the day out on some Animax meeting with Chammaine picking me up,although we did end up being 40 minutes late wtf; then went for a good round of retail therapy before grabbing another late lunch off Jalan Imbi.Finally watched The Back Up plan and love movies always makes me cry.

Its always easy to walk away from situations,and be too fearful of the outcomes. Its not that I’m trying to relate to the movie on how Jen lacks trust in people which causes her to sort of shut everyone out of her life and being so independent about it. To an extent of even facing the risk of losing the one person that you cherish out of fear, the fear that he’s not gonna stick around till the end of time. Then it got me thinking; trying to just sort of reflect on this common lack of trust syndrome in all of us, that sometimes its not the trusting part of the process; but the load of fear bulked in possibly from an impact you’ve once faced in the earlier phases of our lives.

I guess I am blessed in so many ways that he holds on so firmly to the fact that we’re together for live; and regardless of all the obstacles that we might face now, it’ll all be a passing thing; a phase like all the previous hardships over the past couple of years together. Its this reassurances and that one thing is extremely important to me; sharing the same faith. While gazing up upon each other wtf I just made that sound incredibly romantic, I knew that this man is completely in love.

I smiled, of course.

There aren’t that many liars around when it comes to love, there are more people living in denial. Either that, or just being too cautious impounded by the fear of failure. If this life is one long journey which it is, with us checking in at different check-points; do you ever look back and wonder if all that has happened was a wake up call that your present is what matters most? Not the future, not the past; but what most of us often fail to do, grabbing hold of this very moment.

You’d rather risk not making a mistake, but without realizing you’re risking losing the future.
This second is gone. I do ask myself at times if the past which haunts me and chases me like a bullet train, the future which seems a little brighter with a different option, or if this very moment is most important? What makes regrets? My life is filled with regrets, but in many ways I think I’m extremely blessed.

I believe in shooting stars.

Related posts:

1. You Can’t Break What’s Broken.
2. Oh Well.
3. Rocking The Talk.

Posted on Sunday, July 25th, 2010 in Blogosphere, Cheerio thinks a lot, Love & Romance, Past, Personal Writing Masterpieces, The Keeper. Subscribe to this comment feed. Leave a response, or trackback from your own site.