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Sweetness In A Box.

missycheerio — Wed, 07 Jul 2010 16:56:30 +0000

Good day folks. I randomly tweeted for suggestions of presents for the Keeper‘s birthday; and somehow I’ve had quite a good feedback. The thing is, when you’ve celebrated a birthday for five years consecutively; you tend to run out of juice & I figured since you read about him (like the main character) of my entire archive here; might as well ask you folks for suggestions. Its always the thoughts that counts, and yes I’m a hopeless romantic!

Here’s a thing, the most memorable presents (based on what I recall) are often the ones which embarks a certain degree of meaning to it; boys & toys will always go well, but I’m hoping to take it to a whole new level. I may be making money from blogging,but bear in mind I’m still a student so don’t give me out of the world suggestions.

If I could wrap myself up in a box (oh no,did i just jinxed my previous post; coffin!?) and deliver it to him in a parcel; then pop up with balloons & a big wet kiss, I think that should do,right?

Frankly speaking, you guys have read so much about us; do suggest something! Especially if you’re a guy,in your -20′s and you love football? Bear in mind that all your suggestions can do wonders; all it needs is a touch of love & creativity!

For the love of the Keeper!

Brothers of Mine.

missycheerio — Tue, 06 Jul 2010 02:59:33 +0000

Has it ever strike you that some things in life are just meant to be? I’ve always pictured my near future a little more different,fortunately it often turns out a couple of steps better; gonna count my blessings for that. Last night,after reading Amanda‘s blog about the whole leaving on a jet plane off to Melbourne, I kinda pictured myself doing the exact same thing when I go over to Melbourne for my masters. Things are still a tad bit uncertain now,on whether both myself & the Keeper might be moving over to Melbourne to kick start a new phase of our lives; we’ll be in our seventh year of the relationship then.

Sounds pretty awesome, but once again;nothing is ever certain.
I guess this is how my life works, I believe in having some form of pre-planning before hand but I try not to get too affected if things doesn’t go my way. I do however believe that things always happen when you least expect them to; but things can also happen if you truly believe in it. For now, I believe in endless possibilities.

Faith makes things possible, not easy.

Everyday I get this crazy feeling all over me when he calls me up saying some really lame things; such things like I am lonely because I have lunch everyday all by myself jokingly while I get to stay at home being a lazy bump enjoying my holidays. I’m not sure if you share the same thing with me, but I find it really warm & fuzzy when a boyfriend speaks to you in a more babyish/lame/chipmunk-ed version of their voices hoping that it’ll make you laugh. Which it does,of course. I get amused pretty easily.

He called me up a moment ago and said; I saw a girl wearing baju kurung, with a tudung on and a helmet riding on a motorcycle; she looked like a sting ray on the road wtf. Ended that statement with some hysterical laugh.

Karlson‘s birthday dinner at Bumbu Desa@The Curve.

To be perfectly honest,I prefer Ole-Ole Bali considering that they do serve almost the same sort of food; minus the serving style. I loved it none the less. Anyway,a couple of nights ago; I met up with my favourite Lim brothers; Kuo Yang & Kuo Hui at My Elephant in Section 17. KY works there,and he’s the man behind (creator!) of the famous Purple Monkey “Artic Rose Cheesecake”.

I’m not a huge fan of desserts because sweet stuffs gives me goosebumps; unless its chocolate in flavor, but I must say I was really shocked on how good this tasted. I’m usually not very critical when it comes to food because it tends to be subjective; but this being an invention from a close friend, and the texture is so fantastic. I have my credibility placed on the line for this; if you ran out of ideas of what sort of delicious cakes to get for a birthday; you’ve got to try to this.

Purple Monkey baby!
It was obviously great catching up with both, and I’m sure they had a gooooooood time bombarding me with names tagging me as the FFK Queen (i beg to differ!) because I have this tendency to call off plans last minute due to work. My apologies,will make it up to Kuo Hui for our Falling Slowly jamming session!

I think guys who can cook or bake is hot, not to mention when they prep up food so well too! Its nice to dine at a place where you get first hand service wtf we stacked up the plates after eating; how fun is that! You’re the bomb KY.

Food was tasty,because he ordered the must try’s; sadly I’m bad with names of the food.

What an emo big baby!

Kuo Yang,25 myself,21 and Kuo Hui,28.

All in all,it was a great night considering that I nearly lost my way like 374092361094169461 times. This would obviously rub in the fact that I do miss having all the freedom to do everything without having something else to worry all the time; i guess thats life for me. So far,I’ve made the best out of my moment being awake, the month of July is gonna be fantastic. Had lunch with Aaron, met up with Joe Low & Ethan at Delicious,Bangsar with Jaclyn joining us; and now I’m waiting for Chia Wen to come over! Dad is being kinda pain in the ass claiming that I should be doing something more productive; oh daddy, haven’t I being doing so over the past couple of months?

Stay tuned

I Call This Home.

missycheerio — Sun, 04 Jul 2010 19:17:22 +0000

Good day folks. I have a slight confession to make,I think I’m suffering from this transitional part of my life where I’ve been receiving way too much pressure of having this blog. I know that I’ve probably gotten passed this stage a million times before, but I can’t help but to feel invaded at times, which explains why I’ve not written much about the Keeper, love & relationships and things like that for the past couple of weeks. This kinda struck me hard over dinner two nights ago,but this friend told me that I’m heading towards a direction of being a little too commercialized and not as personal anymore.

Well,I beg to differ. Truth remains that the only reason why I’ve been holding back its because I know who’s reading this; and the figure is growing,and I’m starting to get a little intimidated by the amount of readers. This is a very personal space,and I truly apologize if I have in anyway made it a tad bit too public, that is all gonna change from this point forth. I miss being blunt and brutally honest about how I feel about things, how I feel about people and most importantly with my perception about life itself as a whole. I miss being emotional and angry, I guess its all a part of growing up where I can handle situations a whole lot better now.

Look, I’m not doing this for anybody; but figured I sort of got carried away because of the heavy work load and advertorials chasing down my spine wtf. So here’s to clarify some things that, I really do prefer being in a genre of my own altogether. I did go through this period of self-reflecting, about how exposed I feel at times, having people knowing all about what I do, constantly being the food on the plate to get gobbled over especially when you know that people are bound to judge. Here’s a note to myself, Ellie; you’re a person of your own.

And this, right here; is your home.
Its not someone else’s home.

Honesty and individuality is something that cannot be bought with money. I have been pretty honest with myself over the years,but being brutally honest about situations can sometimes get you into trouble too. This is my home, my refuge; a space where it suppose to give you a best direct possible reflection of the person that I am, I’m not perfect. Coming from a past where I was once a child with a dark past, coming out from it, and now living the present to its fullest. I do feel grateful always, because I know that somewhere, someone is watching over me.

Count your blessings, and a person who’s never satisfied will never find happiness. If I can successfully remind myself with that statement each and every single morning before I get my day started; I think I’d probably be more appreciative of what I have now. I know I’m extremely blessed with Alvin who’s been pampering me like a princess over the past 4 1/2 years of our relationship, with so much respect & trust; your partner shapes you, and the support you get takes you to the next level of your capabilities. It worked vice versa of course.

I have my dreams,but I don’t call them dreams anymore because I know that even my dreams envy my reality at times. No thats not a boastful statement,just merely a gesture to show how much things have somehow miraculously turn out even better than anything I’ve expected. There’s of course this constant struggle to know whether my route in becoming a great architect will be an easy one, but rest assured; I don’t give up. Giving up is probably the dumbest thing to do, because you’re literally erasing off the very tiny percentage of possibilities that it may just work your way.

Be it relationships, studies, and other things; don’t ever,ever give up. The future will always be worth fighting for. At this moment, I picture a beautiful future thats framed up with this two person walking down the isle, having a toddler dressed up in cute outfits and designer shoes wtf, a place of my own which is gonna be designed by yours truly; and all I want is just to be happy.

Don’t ever underestimate the price of happiness.

At times I do wish that I can cry out loud to the ones whom I’ve been fighting for, for god’s sake; life is short, and you’re wasting each and every living moment of it not wanting to push your buttons. The things that revolve around our lives might be here forever, and you’ll never know if god might decide to take them away through some freak accident or something. I don’t know if you feel what I’m feeling at the moment,but please appreciate what you have. No point in regretting when its all gone.

Forever is composed of nows.
If you keep worrying about what might be
Wonder what might have been, you will ignore what is.

Feels good to be home.

Archi Me.

missycheerio — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 15:02:26 +0000

Good day folks.Presentation went on fantastic today,although I had this major panic attack at 5am in the morning last night; only to realize I’ve not prepared my presentation speech or even given a thought about it. Stoning in front my computer, thinking; oh wow,am I really gonna pull it off as the first presenter by going in spontaneously? Ellie,you’re presenting a design; i said to myself.

So here’s a couple of bits and pieces of my studio work this semester; architecture is all about the process of discovering yourself along the way, you always know what you want; and you make it happen. There will be this point of excitement in the first two years, then a point of self discovery in the purpose of why you chose to pursue architecture and the step after, you discover this side of yourself which you’ve never seen before.

You will find your purpose, your drive and the very direction which you choose to obtain in the future. There is no if’s, no but’s, no perhaps; its a commitment, and commitments don’t come easy. How i wish at times that I had more time in the world to do other things, but if you’re doing what you love,it’ll never feel like work.

I am often lured by this other side of my world, the world wide web that strings me on to so many other wonderful things. This year has been superb having things going according to plan, but I promised myself that this year 2010 was gonna be for me. Sometimes at some point of our lives, we end up doing things not because we want to; but because we ran out of reasons to say no it. Its almost as if we owe it to the world around us, be it our finances, parents, family, relationships and so on to commit so much of ourselves that we end up losing our way while doing it.

Hence, I know that its not about being selfish; but to give myself a chance to do things because I want to, to find the love in the things that I pursue,and everything else coming in secondary. Even the Keeper thinks that I am a thousand times more focused and dedicated to my work,because this one question which you should always question yourself. Where do you see yourself five years down the line?

I’m going to be completing my Masters in Architecture in 2013,work a couple of years in a firm and earn my license to get my own Ar. Its a very achievable goal to have an additional tag in front of your name; as Ar.Ellie Chee wtf. What I’m trying to point out is, we all need to learn how to look at the bigger picture. You need to be able to brush off and say “No” to things; failing to do so, you’ll forever be in a chain of failure.

And so a couple of possible dramas sort of hit me this week, and I think I’m getting a hang of just ignoring them. There’s always this point in your life,when you feel so good about things; that petty issues will be rub off as another rain drop in a thunderstorm. You don’t need to feed the vultures when they’re hungry,they’ll feed it off somewhere else eventually.

In life we get shit thrown at our direction all the time, sometimes you deserve it, and sometimes its just plain uncalled for. The Keeper who’s been trying to knock sense into my head that I should have learned how to be a bigger person, and grow out of over reacting. When you’re in a class of your own, seriously you will look down upon the ones who’s following close behind. There’s no need to be bitter, just know that people will eventually grow out of it eventually. Rubbish belongs in the dustbin, if thrash if what you want to be; learn to find your place.

Here I’d also like to wish Karlson a Happy Belated Birthday, thank you for being such an almost kinda important figure in my life; in case you haven’t noticed, I’m not blessed with any older siblings. Its not like I’m complaining having two younger brothers; its just nice to have an older sibling to sort of make all the mistakes and you not having to repeat them. I’m probably one of the luckiest I must say, to have a couple of shining stars watching over me all the time.

Good friends are hard to find, the ones who stick by you is ever harder. I know life is already sort of awesome to have the Keeper as my other half who’s sort of striving his way to build his career; but to have a role model/punching bag/bitching buddy to tell me; Hold on Ellie, don’t run over anybody when you get so mad. I hope this year ahead would be an awesome one for you,grow older gracefully wtf and yes I am looking forward towards the Shanghai Expo 2010!

Imagine all the awesome pictures of the pavillions, and fingers crossed that my blog sponsors can hand me over some goodies to bring it over to the Shanghai Expo. I’m so glad that my holidays have finally arrived, let July be a great month; gonna be spending a week in Shanghai,a weekend in Singapore,shopping spree, and I’ve made my promise to make it up to all the “sorry,I’m busy” all within this month.

Oh my god,so happy and excited can cry!
Hope you enjoyed my architectural works,feel free to encourage me okay?
Architecture is more than meets the eye. See you readers tomorrow.

Papa’s at La Cocina.

missycheerio — Tue, 22 Jun 2010 18:05:35 +0000

Good day folks. I can’t wait to get tomorrow over and done with, then I can finally go full swing on the race to the finishing line for studio. Spent the past couple of days drooling over my notes because I tend to fall asleep every hour then automatically wakes up after 10minutes salivating all over my notes. Wish me tonnes of luck & hopefully all the hard work will pay off for tomorrow’s paper.

You know sometimes when you feel all lousy and unmotivated,you tend to just space out into strings of thoughts that don’t make sense at all; for my case I went into deep hallucination last night wtf dreaming that I got kidnapped by some uncle. Its so funny that my dreams are all going hay-wire, how does squeezing in my notes from Building Science lead to me being kidnapped wtf.

Some dream of success,while others wake up & work hard at it.
Things may come to those who wait,but only things left by those who hustled.

Guess I haven’t really been dreaming in reality which lead me to dream about being kidnapped in my dreams. Its true how that statement states that we’re often told to have a dream since we’re little, and how most fairy-tales would convince you that dreams do come true.Long gone were the days when I recalled being young,asking daddy & mummy; what was my dream when I was a little girl? It turns out,dreams will always overlap one another as we grow; so what is your dream?

Pictures from Father’s Day dinner at La Cocina Restaurant & Tapas Bar,clearly understated with mega excellent service. You can always refer to KY‘s food review here.

Tapas to kick off the night.

Garlic Shrimps; Pan fried shrimp with a lot of fresh garlic, olive oil & dried chilli. RM11.90
Lamb Meat Balls; Spanish meatball served in herb tomato sauce. RM8.50
Fresh Button Mushrooms ; Served sautéed with garlic, onion, herbs & olive oil.RM 9.90

Fettucine Marinara. La Cocina’s own style of fettucine, sautéed with fresh shrimps, clams, fish fillet, squid, large prawn, shallots, basil & garlic.RM 19.90 only! If you were to make a direct comparison,perhaps with Pizza Uno’s, the texture of the gravy & freshness of the seafood is way better here.

Chicken Pieces In Creamy Mushroom Sauce. Tender chicken pieces, sautéed with fresh mushroom, garlic, olive oil & fresh cream, served with mixed vegetables & shredded potato. RM23.00

Mixed Seafood In Saffron Sauce. Mixed seafood platter cooked in a light seafood saffron broth sauce, served with rice & mixed vegetables. rm38.00

Grilled Salmon Fillet. Grilled fresh salmon with herbs and spices, served with creamy garlic sauce, baked potato with garlic butter & mixed vegetables. RM28.00

Fish & Chips.Spanish style of fish and chips, breaded & deep-fried fillet of white fish, served with french fries, salad & garlic mayonnaise sauce! RM16.90 Largest portion compared to the other dishes.

Brother Wen Zhi who does the gym & ballroom dancing,genius at school too.
Mum who looked so happy finishing up her ultra huge fish & chips.
Youngest brother Wen Yang who looked rather stoned.

Don’t ask me why,for some reason the family sitting arrangement at restaurants is always me sitting next to dad.Imagine if I grew mustache!

Father’s Day at La Cocina was definitely a good pick,considering it was a last minute impromptu lets give it a try sorta decision. Found this rather share worthy,and its good that some of you even wrote to me to ask about Logenhaus in this post, thats it for now about food. I’ve gotta hit the sack soon; gonna give my brain some ample amount of rest in order to function according to the Keeper who claims that there’s no word to define my sleeping habits at the moment.

He claims that people sleep at odd hours or stay up late periodically, how come I do it all the time. Anyway,continuing from my previous rant about dreams; do you have a dream? I know of some people who’s so realistic about the present and the future that they don’t believe in the whole idea of dreaming anymore. Throwing the question right back at me, I believe making things happen the way I want it to. Dreaming makes me happy,but taking baby steps in establishing my strength in building the life I want is definitely working out for me.

I’m gonna need lots of luck for my exam tomorrow,any kind words of encouragement would be greatly remembered. Good luck to myself for tomorrow.

Family Matters.

missycheerio — Fri, 18 Jun 2010 20:06:34 +0000

Good day folks. I do realize that its been quite a while since I’ve updated anything personal & lesser on events wtf but trust me this month of June is insane for me. I wish I could split myself into four, one for uni assignments, one for the Keeper, one for my family and one for the blog of course. The problem with me according to most people,is that I don’t have much time for myself. Quoted by Sherene as I got off the phone with her at 2am; I am deemed a workaholic.

I can’t stand not spending my time doing something worthwhile,even cursing when I get up at 10am in the morning although I’d set my alarm to wake up at 7am; claiming I’ve just wasted 3 hours of my life sleeping wtf. I no longer have weekends, because weekends are sort of the days where I don’t have to leave home and just work non-stop. Its crazy, I know; but I seriously think I need to slow down a little bit. I do sincerely apologize to my advertisers about your pending advertorials; I don’t wanna put up a shitty post just to get it up, I’ll make sure its worth the wait.

They say that what shapes you and strengthens you up is your family. I don’t know how others visualize their family to be like; but I kinda like how my family works and how we’re brought up. Judging from a first hand experience from someone close to me, not everybody is as fortunate to have siblings who’re extremely close knitted; sometimes it can get that bad to an extent where you’re literally individuals sharing the same parents living under the same roof and nothing more than that.

Here’s a rarely posted up picture of my family; because I do feel a little protected over my family for some reason. Don’t ask me why, I’m cautious that way.

Celebrated my youngest brother, Wen Yang‘s 15th birthday at my aunt’s place. Here’s your chance to tell me who looks more like who in the family. I’m serious, this you must tell me okay!

Meet my youngest (out of three) nephew!

Nothing beats to see how surprised and happy he was that we actually put thought into celebrating his birthday. You see,most siblings are different from one another. I love to show the love wtf buying my brothers stuffs whenever I’m out shopping with the Keeper; then his remark would be, if anyone had a sister like you, they’re so blessed! I love my brothers.

I love the effect of the candles flaming. Don’t you?

Count to three,make a wish.

Happy Birthday again love,please know that jiejie loves you to bits although I used to chase you around with a cane to get you off the computer wtf. I doubt you read my blog but I’ll make sure you do tomorrow,so please be a good boy and a better person than I am because daddy sets crazy standards for me in order to make you a better person when you grow up too.

Look at the Keeper talking to cousin Nigel wtf his expression is so hilarious don’t you think? My wild guess it’ll either be about poker, cigarettes or me wtf. Alvin if you read this tomorrow please comment and enlighten us thanks.

My dad who looks extremely scary when he doesn’t smile and my nephew.

This hunk who obviously doesn’t handle babies very well! Thats my brother,Wen Zhi.

Fantastic lunch at my current favourite place who’s apparently been around for 16 years, Logenhaus@Taipan,Subang Jaya. The chicken dishes which comprises of 1/2 chicken is only RM16.90. Grilled to perfection!

If there’s one thing that most people fail to cherish in life,is family relations. You’d be surprise how much unnecessary tension there might be in a family over the slightest matters; only when something really bad happens only people tend to snap out of their self-centered issues, and care a little less about themselves. Sometimes I tend to self reflect when I look at other families where some come from broken homes, some with cheating parents, some dealing with illnesses and some completely fine people just not having that family bond.

You know,I need to spread this tiny message out to my younger readers; parents may be a pain in the ass because they will never agree on anything for as long as you still hold the “teen” word; but you need to learn to listen. Don’t be a rebel like me learning it the hard way that family love is unconditional. We feel for one another,we share it all; and its for a lifetime. Since its father’s day this weekend, try to do something with your family and know that they’re not gonna be here for the rest of your life.

Cherish your parents, its often the thought that counts. We as growing teenagers are as calculative as ever when it comes to allowance, hours being able to be out, how much we spend on everything and we’re calculative without realizing. They don’t owe you to you, as the matter in fact; its their love which created you.

Do I look like my mum?

Yakiniku Saturdays.

missycheerio — Mon, 14 Jun 2010 01:40:06 +0000

Good day folks. The weekend was nothing short of eventful I must say,although I am pretty darn pressured because my finals is coming up next week. Last night’s Chillex Cafe launch was probably my last till the day I am released and to be honest, I am trying to just live by the moment. I have so many things going on for me at the moment,and I’m very sure people are yearning to see their advertorials up; but I assure you that it’ll be nothing short of amazing when I find the right time to do it.

Apart from that, I really am just trying to cope with everything at the moment. My laptop’s power adapter have finally given way yesterday,leaving me so frustrated that I swore I’ll cut the wire into pieces the moment it gets replaced. If you should ask,this has already been my third set of power adapter; overused perhaps?

Thanks Andrew C. for the picture.

Good lord that the week has ended,events are insanely exhausting because I have to get back to a mountain of work right after and its a miracle that I’m actually alive and happy wtf. Its pretty weird though that I’ve been getting comments that I look younger now in pictures (hello I’m not even 22?), and a little different; my initial assumption was of course, maybe its the photo editing wtf. Till meeting a couple of people over the past one week telling me that I look different?

In a good way of course.
And that be disclosed in the next post, on why the lesser I sleep,the better my skin complexion!

Things will never be easy when it comes to coping with your own responsibilities & being in a relationship committing to someone all at the same time. However,if you do find that balance to remind yourself at the end of every hour in your day; you might just realize that all the torturing at school/work is merely a passing phase but what remains is the wonderful thing that you share. I get annoyed easily when I’m lack of sleep, to an extent where I’ll just call the Keeper up out of the blue in the middle of broad day light just to tell him to annoyed I am and how annoying he is.

At the end of the day, I guess I should count my blessings for the support I’m getting especially for how he believes that I’m capable to do so much more in life than just architecture. Michelle’s been pushing me to try singing and posting videos on Youtube wtf, she even dreamed on my behalf; imagine an architect, who sings and writes. My only reply was, I think if I were to do all those all the one go; I won’t have time for myself!

Four weeks ago,on one fine Saturday; we had an eating spree!

Sakae Sushi serves comfort food,so reasonably priced! Then to satisfy my cravings for something very spicy; thank god both our level of tolerance when it comes to spicyness is way off the charts!

Stir Fried Kangkung with Belacan.

Tom Yam Seafood.

Thai Fish Cake

Thai Seafood with Glass Noodle Salad.

Thats Just Thai of One Utama for you,now moving on to the place which I’ve been raving about; Yakiniku Restaurant which i was so thrilled to give a try after reading it off KY & Cheesie‘s. Its a place where they allow you to cook your own choices of dishes over a charcoal on your own. I know that its been quite a growing trend especially since the Korean BBQ style of appeared years ago, but I kinda like how I get all sweaty & smokey at the end of the experience wtf. Its an entirely worthy of eating experience because I was so fascinated by the color of the charcoal burning up, and of course the Keeper said,

Let me be your personal chef for tonight.
Remember,the luxury of eating isn’t for the price you paid for it; but the memories that you bring home from it.

Lean Meat RM5.90

Bacon RM5.90

Lamb Shoulder RM6.90

This was my favourite dish,NZ Greenshell Mussels RM12.90.

Squid RM6.90.

Shishamo RM13.90

Chawanmushi’s always a must have,or rather must try.RM3.90 and they forgot to charge me for this!

Restaurant Yakiniku
20G, Jalan Pandan Indah 4/8,
Pandan Indah, 55100 Kuala Lumpur
GPS: 3.131116,101.753392
Tel: 03-4295 4833

Do give this place a try,and let me know about it okay? Simply mention that you’ve read this from KYspeaks or Cheeserland and you’ll get a 10% discount just like that. Hope you enjoyed the food pictures which has been pending and flooding my desktop for almost a month now!

As requested, I’ve added the LIKE button; finally!

Who,being loved; is poor?

missycheerio — Tue, 01 Jun 2010 16:05:26 +0000

Good day folks. Its four weeks to the finishing line of this semester, kinda happy that it turned out way better than expected & I think I’ve sort of prioritized my work over the blogging thing; compared to the previous times which answers why I don’t update everyday anymore. Its just how life would somehow feel more fulfilling at the end of the day knowing that you’ve done what you need to do,before looking into what you want. Don’t get your needs and wants confused; it can turn out deadly.

I’ve been sleeping at 4am in the morning for the past couple of nights, waking up as early as 7am to continue with work; and tonight my body is telling me to get some rest. I can feel the end of my joints aching especially my shoulders,literally feeling like an old lady at the moment. The Keeper who showed great support staying up to rush his work for a tender, stayed up till 6am on Sunday! I mean, who would’ve imagined us keeping each other awake over the webcam with me drawing some random smiley over MSN and him blowing smoke to my screen wtf.

What an awakening move.

At different point,and different phases in our lives, we do different things very differently. What used to be some sort of lifestyle which we share if now drowned with work and I must say that I love changes in relationships. It has that magical factor that makes you look one step back then move forward; you can’t expect things to stay the way it is just because it is wonderful the way it was.

He stayed up till 6am, I slept at 4am with my webcam left on.
Among his observations were;

I fell asleep within 5 minutes.
The 6th minute I had a pillow over my head.
The 10th minute I was completely hidden under the comforter wtf.

Its that time of the month, its four years and five months today; this is for the sake of when I look back to every second of every month in my archive, I’d be able to read about something special revolving us today. Don’t want to sound nostalgic this time around, but we had this chat earlier after watching Prince of Persia. Life might be crazy, its always a mad rush and such but people seem to forget to have some quiet time alone just chilling in the car with some absolute pure silence; just living and breathing in the moment.

Halfway through our very dramatic conversations because I screamed and laughed then back to screaming again because I was immitating some cartoon character wtf then suddenly the Keeper stopped me and did this. He took my face, from my chin; then pushed it

towards the front and said; side profile cute.
then turned towards him, front elevation also cute.
then what cracked me up was, pushed my face to a certain angle and said.
PERSPECTIVE also cute.

Point here is not to highlight the word cute,but the fact that its so damn original wtf perspective of your face. The first thing he asked was, I’m sure you’re gonna write about this. This is something worth remembering which I’d probably laugh whenever I read through this.

Furniture shopping at IKEA over the previous weekend!

Look what happened to my hand;
can you make a wild guess what exactly happened?
NO, i didn’t dot my own hands with colored pens.
The right answer gets a mention (name/blog) on the next post!

Matters Of The Heart & Bullet.

missycheerio — Tue, 25 May 2010 20:01:24 +0000

This one’s for you.

Good day folks. Its now almost 3am in the morning,and I’ve just finished watching If Only; well thats my only source of entertainment at the moment to keep me awake while preparing some stuff for studio. It got me thinking about how much life has moved forward for both myself and the Keeper; upon realizing that I’ve not really written about how I actually feel about where we are now,and always just writing from a perspective or an angle.

I’m not here to tell you that we’re the most amazing people to begin with, frankly we’re not. How I feel about us would probably be how it never stopped feeling so magical considering that we’re a 10 days old stranger when we met and how things have seem to played out for us. People have always asked me,how do you write about things like this so well? Thats simple,because its matters of the heart. Things that you feel that shoots you off with a million words.

Words and thoughts that need no sugar coating, and it comes off genuinely to everyone who reads them. You know very well that I’m swept off my feet, and its gonna be five years; half a decade a couple of months from now. I did try convincing myself many years ago that I should not invest or rather commit too much of feeling or whatsoever at this point of time, because its supposed to be the phase where you meet people right? What if this guy turns out to be a complete jerk who cheats on you and then leaves at the end of the day?

I’m sure that question has pop up,for you; right?
If its all worth it.

I’m probably one the many example of someone who’s dealt with the biggest fear,I used to fear everything. Every single decision I made upon was a counter math of fear,and when you make decisions out of fear; you’ll never really learn. With him, I took this chance; I learned how to not fear the future and look how well it all turned out now. If it helps to know, he’s never left me or ever raised the question to; I did, and that was probably my best mistake. (note,not biggest; but best)

And so the cards were dealt, Ellie walks out and she falls into a pot hole wtf. The so much that I know about relationships stopped at some point, we’re not taught of relationships in school you see; but its about how much you learn to love someone more than you love yourself; which then you’d learn the ultimate lesson. Letting go isn’t not loving anymore. Relationships are merely a title,marriage is a title in black and white; but love needs nothing like that.

It doesn’t mean that you’re no longer in a relationship, the love stops. Relationships/marriage is a commitment, and it has to go hand in hand with love. I’m so blessed, no really; to have somebody who’s so dedicated and respect this relationship as much as I do. Believe me that its one in a million to be able to find the love of your life at a young age because 20-25 is an age where you change schools,go abroad,new jobs and all, its a transitional stage.

Things will move at different speed,and the relationship has to move hand in hand; and yes there will be problems. So what makes the Keeper so special and different? Honestly, all men are the same; but not all been are instilled with good values and principles. Find somebody who takes honesty as the core to any friendship/relationship, one who believes in the whole idea of “don’t do something that you don’t want others to do to you”.

He thought me that concept,and threw me that phase. Think about it.
If you can live by that simple phrase in every aspect of your relationship,I’m sure things will be wonderful. I don’t lie,because I wouldn’t want him to lie to me. I don’t smoke but he still does wtf. Its a simple cause of karma that what goes round will come around. I love righteousness and to me, that is the most wonderful thing that I adore about the Keeper.

He has his values held on so tight that he’ll never do anything to hurt me intentionally,and he knows; I would do anything within my power to not hurt him as well. The trouble with this sort of unconditional love, you tend to self-destruct. That sort of happened,but then through a phase where we pictured and got a taste of how life would be like without one another; different but it was like a living hell.

Heaven is what you are happy with around you.

In the movie,it sparked the question if you’d trade your life for your loved ones. A couple of years ago,while I was still in Sunway College doing my Pre-U; we were at this Orange whatever restaurant name it was,and suddenly people started shouting that he’s got a gun! I was eighteen I think, I remember how I would ask him (before that incident) if you’d take a bullet for me; foolishly like how most teenage girls are. Then when that happened, a few cars pulled over on the other side of the road,and people started to take a step back from this other African guy.

We were just standing across the street and when we heard; he’s got a gun. I shivered! And like in the movies (why are my stories so movie like wtf) the Keeper took my hand and grabbed me over and leaned against the pillar. It was quite a stuck in the middle of no where,and walk out you might just attract unnecessary attention sort of situation; so we had to stay put.

That moment,that very moment
when I asked him; would you really take a bullet for me?
He replied, what do you think I’m doing now?
I died in the end wtf for that statement.
That was in 2006!

In one lifetime,there’s only one soulmate. You might find another,and another; but there’ll always this one person who’s tattooed and engraved in your heart. Always be honest to yourself,and I’m not being delusional wtf. Its important to live life based on honesty,and you’ll never be caught in the web of lies or denial. There’s no “free passes” to sleep with somebody else just because you slept with somebody. There’s no two sides to a story, because you should love your special someone as if its their last day on earth.

There’s only one story to share,ours.

Humor Is Me.

missycheerio — Mon, 24 May 2010 02:17:37 +0000

Good day folks. I’ve just finished the final episode of Gossip Girl Season 3 & man I hate season finale’s especially when you’re not aware that its the final episode wtf. Not gonna be a spoiler so make sure you go watch it but its heart breaking; although I find the season finale of Season 2 a little more moving. Love is about finding each other wanting the same thing heading towards the same direction; and honoring the relationship with respect & trust.

It sure feels like its been a long time since I’ve written something mushy; its solely because I’ve been so detached from my happy writing bubble with so much work in hand. Its not easy I kid you not, sometimes I tweet so much that I end up annoying myself too but what the heck you can probably tell when I’m very stressed & half the time motivating myself to just keep pushing forward.

Mum has been knocking my head every morning because I fall asleep with everything left switched on in my room; wasting electricity she claims, but its usually caused by me trying terribly to stay awake. If it wasn’t for my family’s sudden love for salad hence eating healthily, the Keeper pumping me up with fresh orange juice and me falling asleep all the time; I think my system would have collapsed by now.

There’s this weird thing which I’ve been experiencing lately,or rather its been playing on my mind. Have you ever felt like some things in life,some incidents which occur unexpectedly and some accidents which are meant to happen. People always blame the past, about why it happened how it happened or what it could have been. I do too,to be honest; at times I get so frustrated for the trails I’ve left behind. For scavengers more like vultures to binge on hoping that they can rest their entire judgement upon knowing one thing about you.

I’d be honored if you know something about me,but sadly it stops there. The phase of trying to get people to understand that we’re all individuals with a past, and I dare bet with you that me being reserved in person (surprised?) because I’m way too cautious. Over the years, the Keeper who’s obviously done a huge part in setting my path a whole lot easier one; and there’s no love greater than that. You can’t make everyone happy, you can’t make everyone understand; simply because people are born shallow.

I’m not begging to differ.

Its been five years since,and I’ve fully recovered from any form of emotional/mental suffering wtf that sounded so deadly. This is the phase where I’m rewriting the script which I’ve been intending to write,and I don’t intend to refer to the past. You shouldn’t too,because there’s only so much the past can offer; don’t get too caught up and redefine the all that could have been.

Never in my life would I have imagined my life to be set out this way. An other half who walks with me instead of running,making pit stops and hesitating with directions (so metaphorical!), blessed to be a part of the world wide web community, family who loves me, and the privilege to call the shots to do whatever I want as long as I want it. Try to drive your life towards a direction where you’re in total control and you’ve options.

There were some incidents where I questioned myself if my current “smaller” scope of life is healthy and if this is what I want. To be honest,I can’t afford anymore commitments. How can anyone of my age’s schedule be so packed that I need to write down what time I can go to bed? Then I realized that I am pursuing architecture, it consumes you in ways you can never imagine. It sucked at first to have to skip all the parties,and invites, but I guess I’m done with that phase.

There’s nothing I want more than just to be happy,from the inside.

Looking back a year ago, things were in one hell of a mess. Going through this transitional phase where I felt the need to break free from discover; only discovering that god has plans,not my way but his way. It took one good separation to reaffirm ourselves that before its just a hopeful wish that this relationship will be for life, but after that good three months; its almost like falling thousands of mile down a vertical tunnel love. Where life without makes you miserable and takes you to a whole new place in life.

Its amazing how love works; no really, it never dies; its just parked aside. So to anyone who has doubts if love is something worth your time, don’t.Part of my bad reputation came from the frequency of changing boyfriends wtf and as what I’ve told everyone, its all about finding the one. I needed a man with principles, who’s kind by nature, charming yet cold and most importantly goes weak on his knees when he’s around me.

In order to have that ages long but still feels so exciting every time you plan a next day out; be each others best friend and know how to switch roles at times. Friends have no expectations (unless you’re some clingy fuck) and girlfriend’s do; so wouldn’t it be awesome to know that there’s always someone to count on. Our conversations revolve around sounding like total babies with me screaming I hate you, ending with a whyyyyyyy and a giggle chuckling just kidding.

Considering that we see each other on a daily basis for the past four years, oh my god everyday is a new day. It helps the fact that I am random on somedays, grumpy on somedays and bubbly on most days. The Keeper laughs at me as if I’m some dumb blonde(which I am not like duh!), a clown because he seems to laugh at everything that I say that it kinda annoys me at times.

He makes me pull his finger before he farts.
My life is so damn sad at times HAHAHA.
Remember, we all stumble, every one of us.
That’s why it’s a comfort to go hand in hand.

Thank you for your emails on your “problems” lol.
I feel extremely honored to even receive them knowing you actually seek answers from me.
I’m so dumb lah oh my god just realized that I can reply to each and every of your comment individually; so am guessing I’ll be more responsive now.
Have a great Monday!