Good day folks. I’m so stressed up with work at the moment, only had two hours of sleep yesterday; and hallelujah I’m finally done with my music test. Its probably the scariest paper I’ve done because its so out of my comfort zone; to listen to a tune and describe about it? Anyway on a lighter note, I’m sorry that I’ve been so emotional over the last one month. Someone left a comment asking why am I so emotional; well I guess this is a very personal space for me. It helps that I write about it, and to be fair; its just a phase on my end. I’m sure if you read on, you’ll find some unbelievably happy posts. I don’t blog for people, it has always been about my perspective & it is personal.

Sometimes its an odd feeling to have people reading about you, but trust me; writing is a good therapy to put your thoughts into perspective. I went through a break up, and I’m not gonna pretend that things are all so merry; but its getting better by the day. I don’t know what the future holds, but I know it will always get better. Right now I’m under so much pressure to deliver my design to its full potential; I’m running out of time. I feel sleepy all the time because of the crappy Melbourne weather; but I’m glad that I’m back on a full swing workaholic mode.

Here’s a story about a lost boy that crossed my path recently. I’ve never seen someone so lost and trapped, so confused and so determined to grow up. Nobody understood why I’ve stuck around, it wasn’t about me; I was never fighting for myself. I was fighting for him, it was his losing battle to reality. I’m sure most of us have this point in time where you meet somebody who reminds you a lot about yourself; and that’s something you can’t explain. You just know it. Round and round, corner to corner; it was a fight to help him find himself. I had this conversation over lunch today, about how sometimes when you take yourself out of the picture; you’ll see the bigger picture. Life doesn’t revolve around keeping yourself happy, sometimes someone else’s happiness can rub off on you too.

I saw myself. It was probably the best and most rewarding feeling to know that someone you care about found their way out of misery. I listened very carefully, every word for word; as he described how free and how empowered he felt as an individual again, it nearly brought tears to my eyes. I know how it feels to be lost, to be free falling; and how great it feels to conquer your fears.

He said to me in teary eyes; I’m happy now.
I’m happy that you found yourself.

I’m struggling with my work at the moment, but I’m gonna keep fighting on. I need to push my boundaries, enough of being upset; because I have priorities. There’s nothing I want more than to do well, and I will stop at nothing to get there. Daddy thinks I should just give my best shot, and let the rest work out on its own. Wish me luck!

Related posts:

1. Stop & Stare/With or Without You (Cover).
2. Oh Brownie.
3. Muscular Faith.

Posted on Wednesday, October 12th, 2011 in Blogosphere, Cheerio thinks a lot, Leon Marcus Zachary Music, Leonells, Love & Romance, Melbourne, Past, Personal Writing Masterpieces. Subscribe to this comment feed. Leave a response, or trackback from your own site.