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Stairway To Success. |
October 28, 2011 |
Hello.
I’m so stressed up right now about Masters next year. It just hit me that I might have to fly home in December, back to Melbourne to move to my new place (absolutely thrilled!), back to Malaysia for Chinese New Year then back to Melbourne again late February. Just got off Skype at 3am after some heated argument with mum which is so not cool, and how am I suppose to go to bed now with so much on my mind? 
The amount of pressure to do well for my finals has finally kicked in, and truthfully; I dread the whole process of getting my visa, COE and it always ruins my mood for holidays.
I think its best to just take it one step at a time, and hope for the best. There’s only so much I can do now,and I really need to give my all. Its not like I’m fooling around with my studies; I’m just scared, and its perfectly normal when you’re a month away from completing your degree. So much uncertainties, and perhaps I’m just freaking myself out for nothing. I had a good session at the gym, leg presses totally drained me out; but it sure helps when you get kisses as a form of motivation. 
Its really nice to hit the gym with your boyfriend, especially when he tries to impress you; heh.
On a lighter note, I really miss home.
I’m getting so used to living away from home that it feels a little odd. I can’t say that I miss my mum’s cooking because I’ve been attempting all her recipes and improvised ‘em on my own. I miss my Brownie, spent about 30minutes being on Skype with my dog last night. Even calling out its name like some crazy girl, and seeing how he responses when I call out his name; you have no idea how sad it feels. As much as I miss home, I think you’ll never really grow up till you be away from your family. When you lose that sense of comfort, that’s when you really grow. A freedom to mess your life up; a freedom to be at your best.
Anyway, here’s what I did last night.
Four years ago, I knew that architecture would take up another 6-7 years of studying; thats like going through another round of high school majoring in one specific field. Now I’m two years away, and I hope few years down the road; I’d be a rocking architect. I might venture into my other love for music, photography + modelling, travelling, cooking and get a smoking hot bod. There’s so much I’ve set out to achieve, and I’m already halfway towards my goal.
I’m gonna head to bed now. Things are gonna be great, gonna squeeze the life out of my boyfriend and apparently he’s cooking tomorrow; I should feel better. Early class tomorrow,gym & camping in uni. Just a random thought before I head to bed, I love how you would take my hand and kiss it; especially when its all sweaty during gym. Good night world, can’t wait for tomorrow.
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