They say that love finds its way to you when you least expect it. The past three months felt like years, and for once; it wasn’t all pretty. I remember how I used to talk about love and relationships as if you’re reading off a story book, that happily ever after does exist; and someday prince charming will come knocking on your door. I’d say that mine did, and despite the hardships; (I’m pretty sure there’ll be more to come) I wouldn’t have it any other way. Everything happens for a reason, nothing is ever accidental; at least for love.

I didn’t want to write about how amazing Leon is because I honestly fear that back lash when it all crumbles; if it falls apart like the previous relationship. Shit happens, but that should never mark the end of your search to find something better in life. Today marks the start our 4th month, and although it feels like I’m starting all over again; being with someone who genuinely cares so much about my well-being above everything else, this could just be it. I’ve been quite unhappy since I got here in Melbourne, I had hopes that life will be better when you live in a new environment. It does change your routine and lifestyle for quite a bit, but he taught me that the first change starts from within.

Some called me a dreamer because I’m too positive when it comes to bad situations; so much that I was dubbed naive. I think at some point, I lost my way; falling into this roller coaster ride of denial. I’m so used to running away from heartaches burying them deep inside that it became toxic at some point. The time spent in Malaysia brought out the worst in me, this whole other side of myself where I was so blinded by the web of denials I’ve built; I was very much confused. God has plans for each of us, and there was this point in time where I was angry; thinking to myself, why Ellie?

I’ve spent the last couple of years making it up to people for the mistakes I’ve made, always giving in to others; it was never about myself. For once in my life, someone stood up, backed down, made a U-turn and brought me out of darkness. Perhaps its true that everybody heals differently, I wasn’t ready to take on the world alone yet; not without my family in Melbourne. Leon, apart from his amazing voice (sadly he doesn’t sing to me as much anymore!) is probably one of the most amazing guy I’ve met. I admire his strength and passion, I love his family values; truth is, he probably know me better than I know myself. I needed someone who knows how throw a big fat NO to my face.

So here’s to you, the man who can’t be moved.
Thank you for all the love, patience, heartaches and long travelling hours.
You’ve single-handedly redefined the word love in my dictionary.
I love you.

Kinda wish I had the courage,
A bit of bravery.
So tired of waiting on a man to come and save me.
Wishing I had everything,
Or something really.
Hard to admit it,
But now I’m thinking freely.
I’m going to open my mind to all these,
New found exciting possibilities.

Oh ah oh ah oh ah oh oh.
I’m making all my own plans,
(Oh ah oh ah oh ah oh oh.)
Throwing all my old ones away.
(Oh ah oh ah oh ah oh oh.)
Gonna grow up, Be someone.
Draw a map, find a path.
Take a breath and run.
And run.
Filling my head with words to encourage me,
Gotta get my act so straight so I can truly believe.
That what I’m waiting for, is really worth the wait.
Stop bringing myself down,
I gotta know what makes me great.

Now,thank god I found you.

Related posts:

1. Viral Love.
2. Love Is The Music.
3. Way Back Into Love (Cover) by Leonells.

Posted on Sunday, July 31st, 2011 in Blogosphere, Cheerio thinks a lot, Leon Marcus Zachary Music, Leonells. Subscribe to this comment feed. Leave a response, or trackback from your own site.