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Reruns All Become Our History.

January 30, 2013


Tried on the Urban Decay Naked Basics palette. Here it is. :)

When someone drops a bomb on you unexpectedly, it can really make you wonder if you’ve been doing it right over the years. Well I feel a little dumbfounded shamelessly in denial that perhaps, its true. Maybe I got so carried away to avoid being perceived a certain way that I’ve lost track on progress. Truth is, I think upbringing has a lot to do with the way I carry myself. Your environment shapes you. It’s not like we’re all the way we are when we were toddlers, right? Sometimes its just hard to get the best of both worlds. I’ve learned that you can’t make someone love you if they don’t. That really is just it. I’ve personally experienced relationships where we stay in a relationship for all the wrong reasons. Sometimes its the attachment, sometimes its the promises made, and sometimes, the fear of being alone. Sometimes I really do wish that things were different, but I know that sometimes things happen for a reason. There is only so much we can control and decide. I do envy seeing happy married people walking down the street, being hand in hand, with the twinkle in the eye, and the look on their faces gazing upon each other? I’m trying to recall that how it feels to be in a good relationship, where love conquers all, and that burning fire from the inside that lights up the darkest hour. Maybe timing is everything. I’m not sure if this ticking time bomb is gonna just blow me over, or I might just explode before it happens.”

“Scars are souvenirs you never lose, the past is never far.”

Hello again. I think its time to let go off the past. I can’t keep going back and forth, being in denial that it hurts. Maybe the scars are fading by the moment, maybe time is just working its magic. It is getting better by the day. Faith needs to be restored. Relationship shouldn’t be bounded solely by attachment, memories, and promises. If there is one thing I can change about my life, I want to focus more on the present. If trouble knocks on my door in the future, just bring it on. I’ll worry about it when it arrives. I’m not saying that we shouldn’t plan our lives ahead, but I’ve witnessed chronic cases where people completely lose themselves in the chase for the ‘ideal future’.

As the saying goes, seize the moment. You can’t turn the clock around. I’ve just sorted out my timetable for this upcoming semester, and oh my god it’s gonna be crazy hectic. I even have classes on Saturdays. :( It’s gonna be a really tough semester, so I better start kicking myself now to be mentally prepared for the stress and heavy workload. Which also explains why I’m maximizing my time doing absolutely nothing and just chilling my remaining days away. Being able to be carefree and having time to even watch the TV is a luxury, time is gold. What I hope to achieve over the next two weeks, lose probably another 2kg. My abs line are finally starting to surface, so I better keep working hard before going back to the country that makes me put on pounds. :| Note to self, you made yourself a promise never to let it happen again.

Recently post gym happy, no make up face. :) :)

Managed to squat up to 55kg today: body weight finally!! (did i just disclosed my body weight wtf)

Triceps saw a post by @chapterelf & decided to post this too. My arms aren’t that strong, it’s just getting slender and toned by the day. Gotta pop it like this in order to see the ‘shape’. Remember, moderation is key for women’s sculpting!

Frontal view. I wouldn’t recommend doing isolation workouts. Full body circuits of multiple combination keeps your body in an ‘adaptive’ state. You don’t want your body to get used to it and hit plateau. Unless you’re on steroids, women won’t get buff LOL.

I’m gonna miss Brownthepom :(

Took a trip up north to Penang for some food hunting session. Everything was consumed within 24 hours!! :D Travelling “light & easy” :D

Yummy Chee Cheong Fun @Sin Seow Fong Lye Cafe.

Lorong Selamat Sister Char Koay Teow.

Penang Asam Laksa :)

Serious crabby business @Northam Beach Cafe.

Kam Heong LaLa & Fried Oyster Omelette.

Curry Mee.

Siam Road Char Koay Teow.

Penang Har Mee.

Fried Oyster Omelette Crispy Style, very very good! It’s like having the usual Thai omelette and oyster cooked to perfection @Lam Ah Coffee Shop 南亞茶室.

Apparently this beef noodle is pretty famous in Penang? Tastes like pho with koay teow. @Beef Soup Koay Teow (打石街牛肉粿條飯湯).

Dropped by Ipoh on our way home. Cravings satisfied. My fav old town white coffee place in Ipoh. Brings back old memories. Eggs on toast too! Sun Yuen Loong.

Mexican for dinner date with my brother. @Las Carretas.

Xiang & YinXie. :)

Finally found the time, reunited with Yin Xie! :)

Major steal! RM8 instead of RM49. Ellie the Elephant :)

I have no idea what to do with my hair, should I keep it at a shorter length? :|

There’s just way too much to look forward to at the moment. A couple of hits and misses, but its been great. I always look forward to meeting new people, because it really opens up your mind to things. Changes are necessary. Stepping out of your comfort zone is the key to growing up. Two main challenges to accomplish this year, get some serious kick ass results and super toned abs. Remember folks, you can achieve anything as long as you give your 100%.  Gonna hit the gym later, and try to burn as much as possible. I’ve stopped relying solely on the weighing scale to gauge my results. Till the next post, speak soon! :)

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can’t turn away
Cause all the dreams you never thought you’d lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Got lost or thrown away

And now we’re grown up orphans
And never knew their names
We don’t belong to no one
That’s a shame
But you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won’t tell no one your name
And I won’t tell ‘em your name

And scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there?
Did you get to be a star?
And don’t it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are

We grew up way too fast
And now there’s nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won’t tell no one your name
And I won’t tell ‘em your name
I won’t tell em’ your name
Oooh, oooh, oooh
I won’t tell em’ your name
Ow!

I think about you all the time
But I don’t need the same
It’s lonely where you are

Come back down
And I won’t tell ‘em your name.

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