They say bad things happen for a reason.

I strongly believe that the last one month was a blessing in disguise. I watched Crazy Stupid Love last night, and boy was it was such a good show. They say that some things only happen in the movies, that the one true love of your life/soul mate only comes once in your life; I’m starting to have doubts about that. Years ago, I pictured myself being in this perfect scenario; and I lost myself while searching for it. Now, today; I feel very differently about things. There’s always two ways to handle a situation; like  a break up, its either you avoid it or you face it. All this depends upon individuals, but I believe that facing your problems rubbing all the pain in your face works way better than having it lingering around occupying the space in your heart.

There’ll be no room for other things, other people; and any new addition to your life. What if we’re nothing more than just an over-sized hard disk? We don’t run out of memory, but we run out of storage space. Its like throwing a truck load of things into the C-drive when you can run on multiple platforms if you isolate them appropriately. When you mash every aspect of your life around something, you’d probably mess everything else up. So right now, I’m gonna do myself a favour; I’m gonna run on quad-core instead of dual-core processor.

I was in a middle of my history lecture yesterday, and he randomly mentioned something; that sometimes when someone is too talented; people end up not taking them seriously for their abilities. You do too many things, and that kinda woke me up; that there’s a reason why I chose architecture and I know I’m pretty darn good at it. Its really tempting to want to do so many things, and I used to strive to do it all when I was back home in Malaysia; running on one single processor definitely fried the mother board.

I ran out of disk space, and it was suffocating.

Here I am now, trying to look at the bigger picture. Its time to close some doors and set my heart right where it belongs. I’m no longer upset, as the matter in fact; I feel like a huge burden has just been lifted off my shoulders. Everything that happens from this point forth will be for the future. I’m not gonna look back and wonder; or feel sorry for all that has happened. Statistically, I’ve just turned 23 and I have a good 50 years ahead of me. Why drown yourself in sorrows now? Don’t live for the past or all that has happened; those are memories, life lessons that shapes the new you. Different people grow up at different rates, its a pity when you live life going in circles; like a never ending circus performance.

Through all the chaos, I found my peace of mind.
Enough of the past that has drowned me and blindsided me from all that I’m supposed to be; honestly who cares its true that the first cut is always the deepest. Someday when you’re happy, you’d realize that walking away from the past is the best thing you’ve ever done for yourself. Its always hard to kick bad habits, all you need is to start new ones. I’m gonna strive to be a workaholic again.

Perhaps, maybe; in time, I’ll be a happier me.

Birthday dinner at Meat Wine & Co. Amazing ambiance! Highly recommended, its about 50AUD per person; perfect for special occasions.

Gorgeous as always; Cai Jin.

Melissa.

The ones who love you, will never leave.
Never settle for anything less than what you deserve.
You only live once.

Btw, RIP Steve Jobs.

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1. Band-aid Birthday.
2. After The Rain.
3. Love Notes.

Posted on Thursday, October 6th, 2011 in Blogosphere, Cai Jin, Cheerio thinks a lot, Leon Marcus Zachary Music, Leonells, Love & Romance, Melbourne, Melissa Yang, Past, Personal Writing Masterpieces, Sydney. Subscribe to this comment feed. Leave a response, or trackback from your own site.