Good day folks. Finally I am completely done with my thesis,meaning now its full fledged studio time; and boy the past couple of days has been insanely hectic.Not to mention how much of an eye-opening experience it was to visually learn about how we’re constantly surrounded by unforeseen circumstances and the amazing plans which god has set out for each of us. Speaking in riddles again,yeah I know.

There’s always been this battle whether to set the record straight, or just to let karma takes its cause. If you’ve tasted hell, then I guess you’ll find your way around to know that this is merely being in a hot kitchen.

MissyCheerio.com on the new iPad! Thats Karlson holding it up for me; although I should have hold it up myself; currently having the same nail polish color with my blog header wtf.

You have no idea how much I miss being able to write everyday,or rather rant my hearts out; but I’m lacking of proper rest lately, most of the times I end up falling asleep instead of going to sleep. I guess its a weird thing about me that I work best under intense pressure, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t work without pressure. Its just situations where most would panic their asses off,and I’m like man I’ve loving it; weird obsession with pressure wtf.

My new project has just kicked off,designing a museum (yes again!) but since I’ve been treated to this personal challenge from thou-shall-not-be-mentioned who told me to design something very un-Ellie and tackle my weak spots, hence conquering them(design wise) is probably the best boost I’ve had this year. He insisted that I should push my envelopes, and wish me luck guys!

I had this heart-to-heart session with my dad two days ago; I was obviously under immense pressure complaining to him that I find my life a little overwhelming at the moment. You probably have your eyebrows raised when I used the term overwhelming but to be honest, I’m too busy with very little time left for myself; its so bad that I only watch TV once a week? Most of the time when i’m buzzing online is probably because I’m stoning at my table working on either my thesis, studio, and even my blog advertorials are left pending; thats work for me.

As I was saying about my conversation with my dad, I guess it was probably more of a confession that I’m physically and mentally worn out. With a loud sigh of relief I told him, daddy; I feel suffocated. Its not that life isn’t fantastic with studies going well, studio is bloody exciting, love life is nothing short of magnificent and blogging is paying off really well too.

However, there is only one me.

Yes, juggling between all of it may seem achievable which it is; but its literally consuming every inch of my flesh wtf. My mind is constantly packed with questions like these, at the moment:

1. Okay since I’m done with my building form,what sort of facade treatment should I imply since I’m highlighting so much on vertically irregularity?
2. Can I complete the stupid Building science crap that calculates shadow paths in three hours later?
3. What should I have for dinner since the Keeper wants to buy his new football boots?
4. Will I have time to squeeze in tomorrow for Cellnique’s advertorial post?
5. Khye just offered to play poker tonight at his place,would I have the time to go?

Now those are just the random questions running through my mind at the moment. Perhaps most of you would have the impression that everybody goes through the same crazy schedule, but believe me that sometimes I wish had more than 48 hours in a day! Now pictures of food over the past week. Aside from shopping since I don’t smoke or drink wtf where else to splurge on right; save up one big chunk of what you earn, and eat you favourite food with no financial worries.

He’s edible too,heh.

Photo caption: Ahhh after a long rough day..

Photo caption: One thing I don’t like about you!

Potential place to take Mr.June 24th for a treat

Thats it from Ole-ole Bali

Thats a whole week’s worth of food pictures for you. As for my issue about life being a little overwhelming at the moment, one wise man claimed that its merely a phase which I would have to deal with. I’m not greedy though, each and every little thing that I do be it architecture, the blog, and everything that surrounds life itself its all self-driven; very minimal on peer pressure wtf. When you find the passion in doing all the things that you love for yourself, you don’t need excuses to drag yourself to do it or excuses to drag yourself out of it.

Now I’ve finally realized how foolish I am at times when I get vulnerable & swayed by thrash; the world can never be without rubbish right? Its the cycle of life, some rises and some will fall. To all my loyal readers who’ve been with me over the years; I know I may not be in any position to give an advice; but trust me, nothing is impossible in life.

There is no high way to success, you need to fall; and the harder you fall, the higher you’ll rise. I’m kinda happy having quite a few prominent men figures in my life wtf, all you really need is people who’ll always be there to catch you when you fall and kick you back up. I’m not a bad person,as the matter in fact, a far cry away from it. Just a little tainted and scarred from the past, causing me to behave in ways which makes me go at times too; and I have no fear.

I’ve learned something about myself lately, I only fear the ones whom I care about.
Love for others is my weakness, but anything other than that; may I suggest you start sleeping tight. There’s a reason why I’m so capable of destroying (myself too for that context), I play the silent game.

Strength is what lies inside you,always.

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