On all the gossips,and rumours has it. Here’s the long awaited,
you blog stalkers and good friends should dig in on.So what really happened?

Good day folks. Blogging has always been a huge part of my life,but its getting way out of hand at the moment that I need to take this chance to just live by the moment.Too much of anything is never a good thing,and bit by bit its eating up bits & pieces of my life. Whoa,you have no idea how great it feels to just write with no strings of concerns and worries attached.

Work has been pretty sucky,and at some point it was depressing. I could still remember whining off to Karlson who was nice enough to drop by over for lunch at my workplace,and of course like what he’ll always say;that I tend to over complicate things. Its in my nature to over analyze any given situation,and worry till I get so stressed up; and not being able to get a good grip of things. Failing to prioritize my studies,or rather placing it equally to the whole MissyCheerio identity is screwing my life up here and there.

I can’t live with dishonesty,and living with a cover up with my actual emotions can be insanely mind boggling.To come to think of it,its not exactly the prettiest sight or life to live in having every situation amplified; for example my relationship.

First,because i’ve always been so public with my previous relationship with Alvin before we broke up in February; the pressure was so intense because I honestly felt broken and falling in the eyes of the public,thats exaggerated of course.We’ve remained close throughout the past couple of months,although people never seem to be able to deal with the fact that not all break ups end ugly.It was a more than 3 year long relationship,started a year before I had this blog started up. He was my backbone through the years, helping me grow from an 18 year old kiddo till helping me through my toughest times growing up and out of the darker years.

Our relationship was different.I met Alvin for 10 days,and got together lasting more than 3 years. It was that unspoken chemistry and its always amazing to have your partner being your best friend as well. We spoke the same language,walked the same line and I am everything that I am today as an architecture student,a better person through his guidance; so there’s not much of a debate on why we remained so close,right?

I was once a rebellious teenager,spending nights at Cyber Cafe’s way before Asia Cafe was opened in SS15,staying away from home for days partying,skipping school and getting into fights; big time. And having to fall from grace,Alvin was the man who single handedly picked me up and placed the pieces of puzzles back together. So here you have it,the person that I am today.

About EGo,or rather Eu Gene; whom I met through EVo from a dinner and things just went on from that point onwards. Once again, I was already all torn up and broken inside trying to hide my sorrows about Alvin by being more involved with events,smiling for countless cameras hoping that it would reduce the impact and damage from the public’s eye. EGo was an amazing person,we had a lot in common and I knew that life could take on a different direction; a spark of hope. He’s helped me through the emotional struggles,and my life was like a yoyo at some point! But things didn’t quite work out,and yes the relationship ended in a very peaceful and harmony way wtf. Come on,I’m lucky meeting nice guys; they are amazingly caring people.

I’ll count my blessings.

Alvin has always been the protective person that he was then,now and future wtf, keeping me safe,afloat and alive. Life isn’t always about love and relationships,do you believe in fate? I know how people would assume that EGo could have been a rebound,which I dare to clearly state that I loved him and he’s anything but a rebound. Sometimes there are cases where people are better off loving one another as friends.I love him still,without a doubt.

So where does Alvin come in,with a sudden comeback filled with pictures from one post to another. You see,the thing about having your life plastered all over the world wide web is that; people will never have a clue if you choose to not share it. Alvin has always been a huge part of my life since early 2006,and let’s just say this is one individual who’s here to stay.Over the past couple of months after we broke up, he still drops by to catch up with my parents,and Brownthepom, playing futsal with dad and perhaps our relationship was more than just a relationship.

Look at the bigger picture,at the end of the day; its all about being happy.
I saw a dark cloud over Alvin‘s head,going through depression about work,life and everything as a whole for the past couple of months and I knew that I needed to do something about it. He’s done his part keeping a watchful eye over my well being,and I’m glad that things are starting to work out for him; emo is over. He’s currently working for my dad,and I’ve got a feeling that he’s gonna be able to kick ass and draw better than me!

Alvin; drawing?
Better than an architecture student?
Sounds impossible
Perhaps,I still have my charming bubble to cheer life’s up wtf.
You tell me.

Just note that every end could be a beginning, and life is too short to harp and dwell over about it. As long as you keep moving forward, be as positive as you can be (like Karlson!) nothing is impossible. I wish to be a little more positive though.I’m constantly on an emotional struggle,but I know that life is about to take a very different direction from this point onwards.