Greetings,I’m in a much better mood today. Fever is gone,mum made me drink all sorts of weird juices and herbal tea which wasn’t that bad because the fever literally killed my taste buds. Slept through the entire afternoon after lunch with the Keeper,and then woke up for dinner again with him wtf. I’m sure for those who knows me in person would know how much sleep I’m lacking of. So we (both myself and the Keeper) came up with this conclusion that this one time that I fall completely sick is due to the accumulated lack of rest,over used physically and mentally probably emotionally?

I’d say that 2009 was a whirlwind but a major turning point for my life.
I’ll tell you why so as you read on.

And so we had this conversation about what a year it has been,and how much we’ve grown over the past one year. Obviously people don’t just jump into serious conversations like such,but I was just really in the mood to talk and gage where we stand. Its important to have conversations that requires you to dig in deep in relationships,or rather how it makes things less complicated & more accessible over the long run.

There I was bolting out about how much I despise the whole idea of being used and taken advantage of,where you get people making you do things & not follow up. Then he added about how amazing hypocrites surround each and everyone of us, and the extent one would go in order to paint the prettiest picture about themselves. I only nodded and agreed,but I guess we’ve been making better decisions since. No more big fat liars.

Part two was about our New Year resolutions,just out of curiosity; do you have any? Firstly this would be my first attempt in having one,and same goes for the Keeper. Flashing back over the years,I guess things were really uncertain in the sense where we hadn’t met the turning point. The turning point which involves him setting a permanent foot on his career building where most things were uncertain, and for myself about my plans whether to fly off to Melbourne.

You know the whole situation and frustration bottled up about not knowing what to expect in a year to come which can take its tow on the relationship; that was late 2008 for us. Its all about looking forward and loving the present. So as we were making our way back home,I asked him what would he rate year 2009 out of 10? The Keeper calmly replied I’d give it a 5/10 because first half of the year was probably the lowest point in his life. It was zero,empty & the turning point. Well its all about the ending he said,thats all that matters; how 2009 ends with me back in his arms.

And as for myself I’d love to make a couple of shout outs. I guess I got lucky to have made and lost a few friends through blogging,thats a phase but it clearly has opened up doors for me. In those times when I didn’t know how else to handle the break up and emptiness, I resorted to attending events thanks to Josh who’s always been around back & forth; blogging became a form of self healing method for myself. It makes you think, it takes quite a lot out of you and fills up some holes. Kudos to Josh for being such a great friend through my emo times wtf. Not to mention the awesome birthday party!

I’m also blessed to have this special friend who’s probably a silent friend wtf because nobody knows how much he knows about me. He has also helped me through one of the darkest point in my life especially when my family had issues,and how he has never failed to catch me when I fall. I turn to him for advise about everything and I think he’d probably be paranoid by now but always sounding chirpy because me no likes scary hellos. For all the times of driving back & forth,god knows the list of meals I owe you; and for everything,thank you. Karlson,you’re the best!

My architorturemates who will be flying off soon; Katrina,Elaine,Mee Yi,Yee Wa,Josh,Arizz,Maizan,Siti,Aaron Lau,Aaron Chew,Yee Ruh,Benjamin Poh,Clement,Jun Wai,Choong Wai,and I can’t name them all here; the past couple of years wouldn’t have been that great without you guys. All hail the future architects and interior designers in years to come!

And the list that goes on.

My 2009 didn’t start off so well but I can gladly assure you that the finale has been the best ever. I’m so happy over the moon about completing my diploma, travelling 3 countries back to back in two weeks, drew lots of flowers with James Woon (below) who writes kick ass posts and of course its 3 days to my 4 years anniversary with the Keeper. I’m happy with the way worked out the way it did,through the bullshits,heartaches & stalker big fat liar; you have no idea how I wish that this moment would just freeze in time.

Everybody pays the rightful price for the mistakes they make,and that doesn’t exclude both you and me. I’m feeling that year 2010 would be a great year because there’s bound to be a couple of changes; the Keeper is superbly happy with his current job & intends to climb the ladder wtf and for myself my greatest challenge would be to leave all my grudges in 2009 behind. And of course,I snipped my long hair off after eight years.

For whats worth; love is simple,fear complicates it.
I’m looking forward towards this brand new year.
Much love,cheerios.

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Related posts:

1. So What Happened in 2009?
2. Knight in Gloves.
3. Perfect.

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