October 7, 2010
Good day darlings. Sorry I haven’t updated for almost a week now. Been having fever for a week consecutively and turns out I’ve been diagnosed with Dengue. I’ve been admitted into the hospital (third day today) and as much as I’d like to stay positive; with the way my blood palate is dropping, chances of moving to the ICU later on today is pretty high. I don’t know how long can I keep up with all the bitter medications because I’m now starting to feel a little frightened by all the what if’s. Its the 8th day, and it seems like inside I’m losing the battle to dengue.
It started off with my nose injury, remember; then I had this fever which some other doctor diagnosed it as an infection. The situation got worse, having aches all over, continuous fever, losing appetite but what triggered the thought that it could be something else when there’s blood discharge. Told mum that something is seriously wrong, did a blood test and to be honest dengue was the last thing on our mind. My wild guess was either blood clogged up due to the wound, or there’s some stomach infection; mum was assuming every wtf. So, when the doctor said dengue; you can probably imagine the expression on both our faces.
The first two nights at was horrible, fever was so bad that I was shivering all night; with my joints hurting that made it a whole lot more intense. Woke up the next morning, mum left for home for a quick shower and such; while I slept my way through till afternoon. Apparently the doctor even examined me and spoke to me but I couldn’t recall anything. He wanted to put me into ICU at that point because my blood count was already dropping like mad; I’m wearing a cute pink tag now that states “fall risk” and one on my wall. Can’t move around without supervision.
I’m on god knows how many packet of drips already, walking around with my pole; I’d humor my mum saying; mum I’m off to do some pole dancing in the toilet wtf then she’ll give me the look. Anyway, this is just to let my readers know that I’m still alive at this point; and if this shall be my last; I really hope you’d each carry one tiny bit of me with you.
Here’s a wonderful cover by Bell, perfect song for the moment.