Things are back to how I pictured things to be. No more mind boggling thoughts which is ultimately dragging me downwards, no more broken hearts since i’m pretty damn good when it comes to picking up broken pieces and mending them back together. Well i honestly doubt you notice the absence of joy in my posts for a very very long time since Sue-Yenn left about a month ago. My final boost of confidence was ripped apart like a wet tissue paper; so effortlessly by “i’m not gonna mention who” but its all over and done with now.


“Its been undeniably tough to come out clean,
after having such a long history with history.”

I was having this deep conversation with Alvin the other day, whining and tearing as i spoke about how difficult the struggle was to break away, to finally be able to let the past which no longer haunts but works amazingly as a reminder. I know you will never buy my story,it doesn’t come with prim and proper cover pages; its something that i’ve never stopped contemplating with and come on; life goes on. I stopped for a moment to think, wondering how the most unexpected outcome might rise to the occasion to spring a surprise just when you least expect it.

I had an amazing time shopping with Yee Wa in Bangsar today, had my banana leaf rice since i’m vegetarian for the day and she never fails to work her magic on me. Life can start all over,this is what i can assure you. Its crazy,really it is knowing how a tangled up web your weave over the years can get hooked on to you for such a long time. Keep believing and wanting that “change” in your everyday life, and stop being defensive thinking you’re all right; you’ll make it.

I can’t believe how much of a bitch i was,then. Frankly speaking, there’s nothing I fancy about the person i used to be four years back. I am bluntly admitting how the pressure of any given situation, the climax of any story; there will always be a turning point,always. 

it still bring tears to my eyes,
looking at how great things are right now.