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Monday November 24, 2008 |
November 24, 2008 |
You asked me if I love you,
And i choked on my reply.
The end is a very strong word, and i’m on the verge of ending everything from this blog to my facebook to everything that created a bridge so close to destruction that i honestly don’t give a shit about anymore. As much as I love writing and the brutal honesty that lies within every sentence,every word for word and every single damn thing which reflects on me. They said that blogging as a platform of self expression, and they forgot to finish the line that it could also be a platform of self destruction. 
I’ve been avidly blogging for the past two years and its been nothing but chaotically wonderful. It was a self discovery and as well as a self recovery day to day basis which probably healed wounds and i can’t deny how amazing it feels to know that hundreds tune in to you on a daily basis to catch a glimpse on what you have to say. I believe in having good faith in people,things and every situation; then you won’t have negative thoughts to corrupt how you feel about a stranger,a friend,a lover, or even an enemy.You may choose to love me,love what i write,hate me,and hate the things that i love. I guess i’ve reached a point that when you take a step back to look at things through someone else’s eyes, you’ll be amazed with what lies ahead. 
“I’ve made mistakes i can’t undo, some which i wish i could elaborate further but sorry its time to put an end to things. Saturday was a brawl that nearly took my life away because on and on again; being stabbed on and on; it hurts and i broke free. You can’t damage something that its already so broken. I gave a shot to fix whats broken,you chose to be so stubborn holding on to what you think went on. I’m sorry, i rest my case. Maybe we’re better off this way,you never really did set the records straight anyway. Like what i said,have good faith in people; then maybe you’ll see beyond what meets the eye. At least that’s what i saw in you,more than meets the eye.”
This is a game where whoever wins,they lose just as well.
Are you a fan of the never ending cycle?
Well,i’m not.
I don’t like winning.
can you look in the mirror,
and still love the mirrored reflection of yourself?
can you still feel good and at ease,
after all the things that you’ve said and done?
I love you nonetheless.If all it takes to destroy love is to super psycho yourself about what you think and how you presume things to be, well you have no fucking idea what love is. I still carry that same smile,because that’s all i look forward to every single day. For a reason to smile,with or without you, with or without love, with or without money, with or without.
One’s too selfish to love. ♠
P/S: This isn’t about Alvin.
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Dear Missy,
If it s not about Alvin, then let it go and look ahead and never look back. You have to much going for you to be so burdened by the past. The “past is the past”, so look to the future.
Peace,
fussyguy
b/t/w: What did you do with the money?
great post.
Heya.
I guess the present hurts even more than the past but you and I both know that i will eventually get right back up again.
The money? ITS STILL HERE 
@mskimhoang -
thank you!
some didn’t quite fancy the contents tho