I know i may be the biggest bitch to some,the one who never tell-it-all, the one who chooses to just share the sunnier side of her life on her blog. I don’t enjoy talking about my sad part of my current present life.  And so,the one single damn thing that changed one huge part of me, was when my grandma got diagnosed with cancer,yes just three months ago. And learning that her husband,my grand dad had died of cancer too. these things bugs me,would you feel the same?

So i was all stressed up,when all the yelling and screaming at home never seems to end. And all at the same time,i learned that it is important to be inspired,despite the tough times,i was indeed inspired. I looked at things very differently after that. There are many things in life that money can’t buy. Happiness maybe,but not entirely.My trip to Beijing did contributed a lot,when i saw people begging,suffering,desperate,and not to forget simple-happy-lives.i felt mine was annoyingly complicated. i made mistakes,i have my weaknesses & i hate explaining myself.

girls will always be girls. our unforgiving desires, needs and wants that changes one. I maybe 19, but this i can assure you. When you know you’re at a point where you can own almost everything, absolutely anything at all, then it’ll all seem unimportant in the end. if you do realize, i don’t write much about the places i go to to dine,the things i bought, the stuffs i own,not anymore. Simply because, im not up for foolish games. Think,think again.

okay, shoes,bags,clothes,make up,lifestyle defines a certain status.  A fine line which separates you from the rest,a line which you drew so fine that at times you just get suck into it. All that fills my mind lately, my family, work, how to deal with the other half, savings to buy not-gonna-mention, and of course my dear blog. I chose this life,i chose to live it this way,respect that. we all have choices,make wise ones.