awwwww..

it felt great definitely,especially when i woke up as an upset kiddo early in the morning. i hated the fact that i am taken for granted for every tiny effort that i put in to make my world a better place to be in; i swear i’ve been doing all i can to make things work at home. last night, i could barely lift my fingers setting them into place onto the keyboard to write; hopefully but i hid it well enough. I don’t expect you to realize how this is affecting me too,so stop being so selfish or else things might just back fire i promise. i’ve worked so hard to live up to some nonsensical expectation which nearly drove me nuts,and now expecting to take your shit for someone elses mistakes; you’ve gotta be kidding me!

i know your life is all jolly good and fantastic but mind you, you have no fucking rights to stir up some drama in my family and expect me to just shut the hell up. you make mistakes,you made the wrong choices, then make things right again. that was how i did it, i owned up to the consequences i landed myself in and deal with it. to be honest with you,everyone has their own anger and dissatisfaction towards their parents, i do to. the only difference is that i make use of my tiny brains to make things work and not compare,contrast and compare again to drag myself down any further.

Just think hard enough,at least give it a try; to put yourself in my shoes. i don’t like myself whenever i’m feeling vulnerable, because i rarely allow myself to get caught in such a position. i just don’t think that i deserve to be treated such a way after all the effort that i’ve put in to help, perhaps you have to learn how to look at everything else but yourself. great job,well done in making me an unhappy girl.  

good night. ♥