Good day folks. Yesterday was one hell of an awesome powsome day because its probably the single most meaningful and well spent day I’ve had in months. It started off with me being random over my stressed out Malacca period asking mum if she wanted to bring my aunt & cousin,Ewan from Australia for a road trip. And in the end, my mum made sure that even my grandma & the other aunt came along; which ended up, Ellie became the driver & tour guide wtf.

I mean its pretty unusual for me considering that I spent most of the time being driven when it comes to being out of town. I get to camwhore more in the car wtf especially when the Keeper is driving,but since its a weekday and it was my mum’s special request, I knew I had to pull this off. Well its a lot more complicated than that, we were in a hurry also partly because grandma’s chemotherapy begins today, and yesterday was the first time in more than 10years that they’re all out as just mothers & daughters.

As I was speeding down the highway, we reached Malacca in 1 hour 10 minutes wtf it was so possible because mum couldn’t nag me with the whole “Girl,don’t drive so fast” because she was busy cozing up behind leaving Ewan asleep in the front seat with me. I mean,deep down inside as much as I was a little carried away with the driving; I know I was doing something right for them, you’ll never really know whats gonna happen one year down the line. Looking at the joy in their faces, like the whole mother & daughters reuniting thing was pretty moving.

I am the third generation,so I only get to play driver.

I know how most people would want to just head out & catch up with a million things they’ve missed out on; but I prefer kicking it off in hierarchy.

Prevention is better than cure.

Attempt one failed; too glaring,i ended up squinting my eyes.

Ewan.

This is what you get after putting on a hat. Messy hair!

Mum.

Super candid moment.

Aunt & mum.

Sometimes, you can find happiness through others. If life was as meaningless filled with selfishness to always be thinking about the 101 different ways to make yourself happy,wouldn’t that be quite a bore?

I did contemplate whether to start writing above slotting it in between the photos; but figured since this is completely unrelated to Malacca post; I’d just start it here. Last night,after the long day trip to Malacca; managed to grab dinner with Karlson who looked pretty worn out after wrapping up on his taxes wtf,and we sort of had this conversation about myself. Here’s a thing,I’m not exactly an open book; you can only know and tell so much, not unless you’re some close friend. So,there I was feeling a little confused about whether I am doing it all right; and suddenly I found the trouble in gaging where I am at this point.

Have you ever wondered if sometimes life is just written; its like they show a couple of signals before something bad/good really happens but we’re often too caught up in reality to notice it? Two friends shared a story with me about how it feels to lose someone you love dearly,someone significant to our lives; and how it can change our lives forever.

People like ourselves, we treat our parents as parents; often writing them off as just being a parent. Always over reacting at the tiniest mistakes that you do,and the line “you’ll never understand” always come into play.I guess it was quite a good wake up call,and yes we all need to start re-evaluating ourselves back at home. They call it growing pains, some things which you’ve ought to go through eventually in order to discover different sides of yourself as your grow. What do you think?

Well,after my morning breakfast with Karlson at The Loft@Empire Gallery & catched up with my childhood [fill in the blanks] Ethan Curzon & I’m now here I am trying to wrap this post up before the Keeper heads on over to watch DVD’s at home with me. It feels fantastic to be in the holiday-ish mood,judging from my current schedule; I’m more than excited. The boyfriend is already complaining I’m spending more time with others than with him; but oh well you have me for the rest of the year wtf.

Hi,anyone hiring a driver?

I’m not sure if I’m ever gonna be the best person,I have my flaws,I make mistakes but I’ll never stop trying to fix things. We all know that some of us live in denial, some have unresolved issues, some have history, some are just born unlucky but never forget that there are also some who’d never want to make the same mistake twice. People tend to throw in the line “nobody’s perfect” because yes it is true; but that should never be an escape route to living in denial and not wanting to change for the better.

At this point of my life,I just realized how much I’ve been missing out on; one main reason was to focus on work, but the other because I think I have this tendency to attract trouble or dramas without even trying. Often thrown into a position where explaining myself would make me seem more guilty. Rest assured,everything on the inside is feeling superb at the moment. We may deal with some mean crazy bitches, dumb pathetic assholes every once in a while; but why not make a change and throw them with an act of kindness like wishing them on their birthdays, or just ignore them altogether.

Just remember,my tolerance for bitchy acts is remarkably high, I can take shit & just walk away because I know,deep inside; i was once one hell of a bitch. I ruin lives & I don’t stop at merely the world wide web. Behind this world wide web, you’re a person, an individual; what we have here even if we’re famous, its merely our real life “avatar”. Don’t get too caught up with your avatar, in reality; we’re all equal. Jealousy from you will always be inevitable.

After all,life is short. I’ve had this long conversation over lunch with Ethan talking about how death around us can change our perception & our ways of appreciating people around us. Would you want to carry all that anger & hatred to your death bed? Would you want the very last memory of the dead to be about how horrible you were as a person? Its time to just try to rub off any possible argument or disagreement; just be happy & charge on forward! Karlson thinks I’m too emotional & defensive at times; coming from a close friend, I think its time to really kick that habit away.

Its good to be back.
Love always,cheerios.

Related posts:

1. You Can’t Break What’s Broken.
2. The Break Up.
3. What Happens When You’re Cursed To Die?

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