January 3, 2013
There are times that I wish for things to be different. We all make bad decisions and some of these decisions bring hurt to others. I can’t undo what I’ve done and I can’t change the past. Sometimes it makes me so sad to learn that these mistakes burn bridges and it hurts even more when they choose to stay out of your life. My biggest lesson? You can’t fix what’s broken because all you’re end up doing is fixing. And I’m so tired of trying to make amends, suppressing all the hurt and keep chasing after the bullet train fueled to move forward. One thing’s for sure, just because you refuse to acknowledge something, refuse to look at it or think about it, doesn’t mean it’s not there, that it doesn’t affect you and the choices you make in your life.
If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that we belong to each other. Always know in your heart that you are far bigger than anything that can happen to you. I should probably head out for gym although my cough is draining me out. I’m completely fine with the usual cough, where it comes and goes. But it’s getting a little hard to fall asleep because as soon as I lie down and try to sleep, all the phlegm will start bursting out through my nostrils and mouth ohmygawd that sounded disgusting LOL. The same thing happens in the morning, leading to chest aches and I can feel my ABS (who am I kidding ) being punched like a sandbag from the inside. Well look at the bright side of things, today marks my new target of losing 5kg’s this month. I need some serious kick start and motivation, so I guess public declaration creates false pressure and that should work. I’ve only managed to lose 3kg in December with one week of holiday being out of the country, so I guess that’s pretty good for 3 weeks of work right? So 5kg’s is totally possible!!!
Wish me luck!