Today probably would have marked a pretty special day if it was what it should have been. I could still remember more than three years ago,when I was still all jovial and insanely wacky; smacking on a pink cap,with Adidas Superstars and Polo Tee clinging on to the hands of something once known as forever. The saddest part about writing about all this right here,and still being so keen to keep on writing knowing that the whole 2 years of my previous entries were entirely about my love.

I don’t give up in things,giving up is simply not a part of my game plan. Having to walk away from something which bites a huge chunk out of your flesh and bones, is so painful that i broke down and cry today. I want to be honest with my readers,not trying to live up to being cheerful and bubbly all the time; too much of self-contradictory i must say.

Being people who truly care to read about what I have to say,i definitely think that you deserve better. So let me bring brutal honesty to the table,and spare me on the over flooding of emotions.

Blocking out your private life after it gets too overly exposed here will never be the best thing to do,it drifts you away to some point where you might live in denial.I’ve built a relationship oh so strong that over the years it became a huge part of my life,i honestly thought it was different,special, and distinctive.No its not the relationship where life revolves around love,or love revolving around life; its about how deep of a tattoo it was,scarred so deep that at times i don’t think it’d ever disappear.

Everything i’ve dreamt of for all these years feels like its all about to get washed down the drain,but i’m too tough of a cookie to break into a million pieces. No matter what it is,learn to take the best out of the relationship and pick yourself right up again.

Easier said than done,its tough.

New people may walk in and out of my life,slipping in so swiftly that sometimes I do lose my breath in the midst of catching up.Reading through my letters,flipping through the pictures and watching the videos brings tears to my eyes because it was a relationship built based on solid foundation.