Greetings. It was sure one hell of a spooky post about the do’s and don’ts during the hungry ghost festival; thanks for the responses & apparently some of these “rules” were broken by many, for example; cursing wtf. Lets get over that chapter for now shall we, because I’m a pretty happy kid today. Its not that I have any good news to share neither did I strike a lottery wtf but I finally had sometime for myself. Perhaps, all I needed was just a good rest, an hour in front of the TV without having to worry about assignments.

Eminem’s rapping replaced, beautiful cover.

Thats obviously not it, I guess in someways I might have complicated things in my life; the people, the lifestyle, the dramas, the food?, and I’m now pursuing the art of simplifying life. I discussed this tiny thought of mine with the Keeper,asking him why does things always seem so complicated (can be either good or bad) and if I’m causing it. His reply was, its a 50/50 thing. Apparently my style of not willing to commit into anything more than friendships, but when I do things get messy for some reason. Then I came up with a conclusion that I really like my privacy.

The misconception would be the part where I hate being apart of something; to be honest, I can’t stand commitments when it comes to taking up my time. I know very well that I tend to hold back from taking any step further than just being normal casual friends because I know I am in no position to maintain anything deeper than that. I don’t like friendships which comes with expectations, just have a couple of good ones who knows every men you made out with wtf just kidding. My point is, not everybody needs social assurance to determine who/how they are in front of the rest of the world.

I do, care a lot about people, but I like to give as much as I can give only when its an unexpected thing. I find it a struggle to cope with my current commitments that I don’t even have enough time for myself, but I’m truly blessed with the love I’m getting at the moment; just felt like justifying the fact that we’re all individuals with preferences. The person that I was before was completely overexposed, I never had the chance to protect my rights, my private notorious life, and when I had that gun pointed at my head (not literally) I knew that if I had the chance to fix things, the first thing at the top of my list is to protect myself.

I write here pretty openly but you can’t say that you know a lot about me because all you have is probably bits and pieces gathered from some point in time which probably won’t even add up to an hour of conversation with me. I’m no longer that weak and vulnerable person (sometimes) because honestly I’m not bothered by jackshit comments by anonymous wtf I’m so immune to small faggots at this point of my blogging career. As a person, with the guidance of my loved ones; a little mishaps here and there, but I think life is pretty good now.

Like what the Keeper always say, you can’t control what others think/feel about you; especially when you expose so much about yourself but don’t commit to any tom dick and harry; just do you best as a person & live life to the fullest. Do things that makes you wake up in the morning without feeling like you’re useless to the world wtf and spread the love. Don’t for a second get upset over petty issues because there’s always God and karma watching over each of us. Let fate take its course,and be merry.

On a random note, the other day I was so annoyed with the Keeper playing Starcraft 2(one of the many birthday presents including the new pair of Puma Roma68 bought earlier tonight), that I drew all over his left arm with black ink. Another random incident, the Keeper bought his family dinner two nights ago,and when his brother was informed; the first thing that he said was; Alvin do you have any life changing news to share? HAHAHA we laughed so hard that I literally fell off the chair. Have to wait till I graduate to get married wtf.

If you can find a man who’d move his world forward for the better just for you, marry him. Men are plentiful, comes with different packages, most with history but not many come with faith and courage in love. I vow to be more positive tomorrow. A retail therapy,movie date & apple juice will always be the remedy.

I’ll probably get no feedbacks or comments on this,but what do you like to read about this site honestly?

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