Right now, I think I’ve placed myself in a large pool of complications; having yourself exposed and sometimes things can get ugly when you have a broad network of friends. For example, we all know that when we’re asked if we know this particular person X, our common reply would be an acquaintance or I’ve heard of him, right? I think this is a problem which most people deal with where people claim to know you just because they’ve heard of you; the funny thing is, there’s something called a blog these days wtf. My point is, we’re now in a way different society; and I’m starting to get used to it.

Being only human, we would obviously want love from everyone you can possible know; but we all know that isn’t possible. Here’s a theory which the Keeper told me last night.

Are you an individual? If you are an individual and when I mean individual it means being a person of your own; chances of having people disagreeing with you, not liking you as an individual or etc is very high because we are all individuals. What we might share is a common ground, but it all boils down to personality; person is singular, right?

He continued, lets do a calculation ratio. If you were a nerdy student, you’ll have schoolmates, ex-schoolmates, friends and etc that would probably sum up to a couple of hundred people tops to like or dislike you. If you are in anyway more exposed to different form of backgrounds, or perhaps a celebrity like Britney; do the sum and obviously there’d be more haters compared to a regular nerdy student. So being humans, we get upset when we hear something nasty about ourselves; but the truth is, we’re all living in different worlds. If a nerdy student gets 20/200 people disliking him and Britney gets 10000/2000000 people disliking her; do the ratio, and what is there to get upset over?

Point is, even the ratio alone can determine the amount of people who actually know you in person. The larger your scope of friends, the more reserved and private you become. Its completely normal, and sometimes you get people disliking you for many reasons; try not to rule out the possibility that there might be something you’re not doing right. If you can live life in a humble stride, be as nice as possible to everyone; if shits still get thrown at your way, just treat it as holy shit wtf.

I’m surrounded by pretty strong individuals, telling me that ignorance is bliss. Its like life-lesson 101 that by putting yourself out there in the public, media or anything more than just the regular school life; don’t expect rainbows at the end of every rainfall. I am hypersensitive, only vulnerable in August so yes its the best time to gun me down wtf just kidding; but Ellie, you’ve gone through so much years ago; time to do some comparison with the present. I wish there’d be more fire in me these days; I wish I’d be a bitch and go all out to hurt people like how I use to; its tempting to let those spots resurface, but I know believe in karma.

Don’t do something that you don’t want others to do to you, remember?
Been practicing that for half a year wtf sorry I used to be a woman with grudges, but I think its a way happier way of living when you don’t live in anger. Just chill, people bark; you can’t put on dog mufflers for them all the time right? Life maybe unfair at times, but god is watching over all of us. I’m not gonna deny that I do get upset when I read/see/hear stuffs, because when I want to be able to look back at my blog archive for year 2010 to be yet another turning point; that this is the point where I learn how to be a bigger person and just chill about it.

The meaner and more horrible they are, I’d like to repay them with kindness. I’m not bullet proof, but please don’t bother pushing any buttons because I can only give love at the moment. Alvin should be proud of me now because I don’t react or give two shits about things like how I use to; I really am not bothered these days. It may put a test of my “ignoring” skills, but I’ve got good people around me to listen, and filter the situations unlike before.

I’ve finally let people in, be happy and merry; I need to start realizing that there’s no chance in hell I’m gonna be able to avoid shit till the day I pull my plug on MissyCheerio (.com,twitter,facebook). Without those three, I think my life would be a whole lot simpler; dogs stop coming when you stop feeding them period. I think its just a phase for most of us, there’ll come a point when you reach a certain level that you feel immune & grasp a full grip on your life that; folks I am an individual.

Its funny how people at different age, reacts so differently to situations or scenarios. They make a big fuss out of everything (during the immature phase) but then only to realize as they grow that it is all part of growing up. People with boring lives will find entertainment talking about someone else’s, how else to strike a conversation over dinner when there’s nothing much about yourself to share; tips, talk about people wtf.