This is the only place I call home.
I don’t mean to be upset, because I don’t think thats what it is. I miss being with my family, for all those years I’ve just taken dinner with family on my birthday as another thing to do. Now that I’m so far away, I wish I had that sort of comfort. Its my birthday today, and its crazy how I’ve gotten endless notifications on Facebook; friends from every corner wishing me a happy birthday. That kept me happy for a long while, how not to be with the word happy appearing over and over again right? I feel alone. The kinda loneliness with many people revolving around your life but it still feels empty.

It really sucks when I have assignments due the very next day. I’m back home stoning in front of the computer again because everyone in my life is stuck with assignments too.  I’m really struggling to fight the emptiness, it just sucks that the people I love are so far away. I’ve always had this whole different picture about how today would have been; and it just struck me how empty it feels to be without. Don’t be too naive, that people will never walk out of your life; they will. Maybe something important died in my life, and now I’m just grieving its loss. I guess its true what they say, that its always darkest before dawn.

Sydney Harbour Bridge’s view at night is so gorgeous.

I had to make a wish before I blew off the candles earlier. I miss having happiness in my life, I miss being happy over nothing at all, I miss feeling whole, and I miss a place that I once called home. Now it feels like my heart is just checking in to hotels instead. Oh well, dear myself one year from today; I hope to see a happier me.

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Posted on Sunday, October 2nd, 2011 in Birthday, Blogosphere, Cheerio thinks a lot, Love & Romance, Melbourne, Past, Personal Writing Masterpieces. Subscribe to this comment feed. Leave a response, or trackback from your own site.