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Fear Consumes You. |
July 21, 2009 |
At times I wake up on a rainy morning like this questioning myself if I’ve been living life the right way & if there was an alternative route which could have lead towards an entirely different direction.Finally when i start to untangle the web and learning to accept the other way of dealing with issues; the closest people which I wished that they’re somehow understand that there’s no need in amplifying everything.
Sitting here knowing that I’ve been thrown a warning that there’ll be more surprises up for me soon,surprises which I’m definitely not looking forward to. 
Its so hard to explain myself because the communication breakdown has always been around, because they never seem to try to look at things from a different perspective. Its always the case of them knowing it all,and me knowing but never seem to know enough.
The communication breakdown between us has definitely taken its tow on us, I don’t even see a point in speaking another word knowing that nobody’s listening.Its my fault for being the way I am,but amplifying the situation simply won’t work. It sucks to be home at times knowing that they’re never happy with the simplest things that I’m happy with. The most frequently asked question directed at me; why do I often complicate things or rather why do i think so much?
I shall forward the two fucking questions to the two people who claim to understand and love me most. If you think I am bloody complicated,I learned it from the best. Fear consumes you,thanks for the awesome upbringing.
Alvin was the only one who thought me how to not let fear get in my way.
Credits to him,and none to the parents who instill fear in everything assuming that will keep things on track. The world has changed,I’d rather live my tomorrows with good faith than in fear. FML thank you.
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Nice weather really today. Just now I just take some deep breathe of fresh air, and just think nothing
Some people like to create fear just and want us to bow on it, don’t let it happen ya. Be strong
sometimes, it’s the way they were brought up.. to fear things.. hence, they instill the fear in us..
but hang in there.. there is a rainbow after every storm and well, a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow!
hugs
Ah, you don’t know me personally but hang in there
I’m sure things will turn around soon.
It happens to almost all people at our age… even myself also. Me too had learned to rather say nothing >.< Let’s work out on this. chill.
btw ellie it’s nice to see u back again yesterday. you’re getting hot lah xD
kellster – I loved it!
how come tak jadi in the end?
ah-hong – well the air quality in the morning is definitely way better than the ones in the later half of the day.
Thanks for the concern,and encouragement of course.
goingkookies – I honestly hate the fact that we’re brought up to fear things,instead of just dealing with it as it is. i like that part where you mentioned that there’s a rainbow after every storm and a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow!
chien teng – thanks babe.
i hope it will/.
ashleyteng – im chilling im chilling! its great to see you the other day as well. getting hot? MANA ADA