“Fall and somebody will be waiting to catch you and put his arms around you. Love can move mountains but it takes sterner stuff to move Ellie cos her definition of love is far more complicated.But be patient,and you might still win her love.” -giam2020

That was a comment from a reader back in May 2009 I think.

I was browsing through my previous posts randomly last night,and realized that wow its been almost a year now since the Keeper and myself had our first separation about the same time last year. It was also in that line of comment above that sort of reminded me how my simple “I love you’s” are defined a milestone deeper than how most would usually define. I remember those times, those darker days when I wrote good cover up posts about how much pain I was actually going through; and how much we’ve both structured our lives around each other.

That period of time was purely painful,just in case you’re ever wondering if this current state where talk so firmly about our future together; all these strength has to come from somewhere. You’ll never know how much you love,till you lose. The Keeper has this amazing power when it comes to faith, and his ability to just give it all without expecting anything in return was probably one of the best lesson I’ve learned from him.

That form of assurance that we’ll be guarding each other’s fragile hearts is something that doesn’t come by very easily. I understand how some would probably wonder if I ever fear that after having it all down in such open public,and things were to fail; would I ever get into a complete meltdown wtf. So here’s a thing,at this very moment when I look into his dark cold eyes and seeing flashes of the past & present; I see myself in it. The law of attraction never fails on you, thoughts becomes things; because at some point you’ll eventually drive both yourselves toward the right direction.

Love is when you frantically talk about him/her without realizing how often you do it. And for all you know,sometimes love has the power to intimidate & inspire.

Let me share some very weird feeling with you. I’ve never really been friends with the Keeper before we got together after 10 days of knowing one another; and lasting till our 5th year this year. So in that period of time when we were apart sort of gave me a chance to really dwell in how our actual reality would be like being without one another. I gone wild and went into full swing blogging about events, while he went into some downward trip towards disaster wtf.

I was reading my conversation with Karlson last night,about what I said about how different my feelings was for the Keeper although we were apart and I was on the rebound. With the Keeper, probably due to his constant promise that he’ll love me for the rest of his life and even till the period when we were apart that protective feeling he had for me never stopped one bit. Now,you must me thinking that I am pretty naive to believe that love is gonna last right?

Honestly,I wish I was naive.
And I wish I was a little less mature.
But here’s a thing, if there’s anything in life that you can be in control of to make it happen; its your relationship. Let the typical till death do us apart (which is god’s will) do its job.

There was this question is its ever a good idea to count the days (sounds like its about to end soon wtf) that you’re together, if keeping track was necessary. Personally,I gave up counting down the months; its a whole lot easier having it 4 years + 3 months now and it all boils down to why you count in the very first place. For someone like myself who enjoys snapping photos,collecting memories,penning down happy thoughts and self reflecting; my present is worth every celebration.

Don’t be stupid fools,counting numbers wouldn’t kill your relationship.
Anniversary actually means something which something which occurred from a yearly basis.

So to that fugly bitch, enough of nonsense; stranger.You’re so ugly that my friend scrolled through your photos with a puking face I kid you not. Perhaps its all about beauty from within,literally. I’ve completely lost all respect for you and please do get married. You’re obviously more mature by age,so I suggest you show a good example.

For all that matters, you’re an absolute stranger.
Hence I’m judging a book literally by its cover.
He’s a great guy,just get married & make gorgeous babies.

I know you stalk me,and thats scary shit.

Related posts:

1. Knight in Gloves.
2. So What Happened in 2009?
3. Tome Dicke & Harrye.

Posted on Tuesday, March 16th, 2010 in Blogosphere, Cheerio thinks a lot, Past, Personal Writing Masterpieces. Subscribe to this comment feed. Leave a response, or trackback from your own site.