Good day folks. Only god knows why I’m feeling all shitty and swimming in a pool of negativity,but I guess today was quite a good turning point; finally I broke down and just sort of have it out. Its not easy,no really to stay up late every night working till wee hours in the morning, then waking yourself up in the morning; and when I fall asleep I get so frustrated because Ellie can’t you just keep your eyes wide open. It was more frustrating when I refused to succumb to the whole idea of being portrayed as someone who’s not able to do it all.

And so, of course being back in the arms of the Keeper; I’ve always had this habit of showing signs that I’m not feeling that fantastic about things,but at the same time I hide it so well that I sort of psyched myself out of it. The word disconnected from myself kept appearing because that feeling of being detached from yourself really screws you over. You know the whole feeling of I am supposed to be stressed out with my exams coming up on Wednesday; but why on earth am I still feeling so calm? Its the most confusing feeling,ever.

The weekend was obviously a little better than expected, enjoyed Karate Kid that sort of successfully showcased Beijing in ways that no advertisement can do; and of course Father’s Day. Lately my dad has been giving me hints that he reads my blog wtf if he does I’m in deep shit; but dad if you’re reading this. Lets just say,this is a perfect chance for you to get to know me as a person from a different perspective. I’ve had way too many “if only my dad knows this about me…“

I managed to camwhore with my phone!

Today I’d like to touch on another issue which has been on my mind for quite a bit lately. Have you ever wondered if the things that happen in your life whether it is purely coincidental or if its fated to be written out the way it is? I sat down while reading my notes for exams, questioning myself if I’ve had any hit & misses along the way,that might have changed the course of my life direction entirely. Its not that I have anything to not be happy about at the moment,having everything heading towards the right direction.

The trouble with people, being completely normal human beings; we lack faith in all the possibilities. Life is like some sort of a roller-coaster where we have our up swings and down falls; but its all about standing right up again. I’ve had years of hell before things bloomed into something so pretty as the way it is now, but clearly I was never beaten. To accept defeat, is to rest your case that you have absolutely no control over it.

Don’t ever give up because you are all you have when it all comes down. People may run away from the obvious answers; I call it living in denial, but the truth remains the same. Don’t search for solutions,search for answers. Be your own person,and never live in someone else’s shadow. Live like you’re dying,and make the best out of it. Sometimes writing helps,its like self-reminding.

Okay I’m gonna be very honest with you; I was listening to this pretty depressing song,felt even more depressed after humming to it,recorded it and realized that I should just make a video combining the Crocs Malaysia‘s website launch at http://www.crocs.com.my. Fingers crossed that you’d be able to figure out the relationship between the lyrics(not the whole song of course!), and just bear with my depression.

You were born an original.
Don’t die a copy.

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Posted on Tuesday, June 22nd, 2010 in Advertorial $$, Blogosphere, Cheerio thinks a lot, Crocs Malaysia, The Keeper. Subscribe to this comment feed. Leave a response, or trackback from your own site.