Good day folks.Presentation went on fantastic today,although I had this major panic attack at 5am in the morning last night; only to realize I’ve not prepared my presentation speech or even given a thought about it. Stoning in front my computer, thinking; oh wow,am I really gonna pull it off as the first presenter by going in spontaneously? Ellie,you’re presenting a design; i said to myself.

So here’s a couple of bits and pieces of my studio work this semester; architecture is all about the process of discovering yourself along the way, you always know what you want; and you make it happen. There will be this point of excitement in the first two years, then a point of self discovery in the purpose of why you chose to pursue architecture and the step after, you discover this side of yourself which you’ve never seen before.

You will find your purpose, your drive and the very direction which you choose to obtain in the future. There is no if’s, no but’s, no perhaps; its a commitment, and commitments don’t come easy. How i wish at times that I had more time in the world to do other things, but if you’re doing what you love,it’ll never feel like work.

I am often lured by this other side of my world, the world wide web that strings me on to so many other wonderful things. This year has been superb having things going according to plan, but I promised myself that this year 2010 was gonna be for me. Sometimes at some point of our lives, we end up doing things not because we want to; but because we ran out of reasons to say no it. Its almost as if we owe it to the world around us, be it our finances, parents, family, relationships and so on to commit so much of ourselves that we end up losing our way while doing it.

Hence, I know that its not about being selfish; but to give myself a chance to do things because I want to, to find the love in the things that I pursue,and everything else coming in secondary. Even the Keeper thinks that I am a thousand times more focused and dedicated to my work,because this one question which you should always question yourself. Where do you see yourself five years down the line?

I’m going to be completing my Masters in Architecture in 2013,work a couple of years in a firm and earn my license to get my own Ar. Its a very achievable goal to have an additional tag in front of your name; as Ar.Ellie Chee wtf. What I’m trying to point out is, we all need to learn how to look at the bigger picture. You need to be able to brush off and say “No” to things; failing to do so, you’ll forever be in a chain of failure.

And so a couple of possible dramas sort of hit me this week, and I think I’m getting a hang of just ignoring them. There’s always this point in your life,when you feel so good about things; that petty issues will be rub off as another rain drop in a thunderstorm. You don’t need to feed the vultures when they’re hungry,they’ll feed it off somewhere else eventually.

In life we get shit thrown at our direction all the time, sometimes you deserve it, and sometimes its just plain uncalled for. The Keeper who’s been trying to knock sense into my head that I should have learned how to be a bigger person, and grow out of over reacting. When you’re in a class of your own, seriously you will look down upon the ones who’s following close behind. There’s no need to be bitter, just know that people will eventually grow out of it eventually. Rubbish belongs in the dustbin, if thrash if what you want to be; learn to find your place.

Here I’d also like to wish Karlson a Happy Belated Birthday, thank you for being such an almost kinda important figure in my life; in case you haven’t noticed, I’m not blessed with any older siblings. Its not like I’m complaining having two younger brothers; its just nice to have an older sibling to sort of make all the mistakes and you not having to repeat them. I’m probably one of the luckiest I must say, to have a couple of shining stars watching over me all the time.

Good friends are hard to find, the ones who stick by you is ever harder. I know life is already sort of awesome to have the Keeper as my other half who’s sort of striving his way to build his career; but to have a role model/punching bag/bitching buddy to tell me; Hold on Ellie, don’t run over anybody when you get so mad. I hope this year ahead would be an awesome one for you,grow older gracefully wtf and yes I am looking forward towards the Shanghai Expo 2010!

Imagine all the awesome pictures of the pavillions, and fingers crossed that my blog sponsors can hand me over some goodies to bring it over to the Shanghai Expo. I’m so glad that my holidays have finally arrived, let July be a great month; gonna be spending a week in Shanghai,a weekend in Singapore,shopping spree, and I’ve made my promise to make it up to all the “sorry,I’m busy” all within this month.

Oh my god,so happy and excited can cry!
Hope you enjoyed my architectural works,feel free to encourage me okay?
Architecture is more than meets the eye. See you readers tomorrow.

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Posted on Tuesday, June 29th, 2010 in Architecture Eats My Life Away, Blogosphere, Cheerio thinks a lot, The Keeper. Subscribe to this comment feed. Leave a response, or trackback from your own site.