August 6, 2013
I’ve been preoccupied. I was on Skype with mum earlier today, and when she asked me, “Girl what did you do all weekend?” I replied, just met up with friends and played Dota the entire weekend. Mum and I just laughed it off although I could feel that she was concerned that I might have gotten too carried away. There is no need to worry mum. Dota is merely one of the many ‘things’ I enjoy doing to kill time, or to relieve stress. I know how it can be highly addictive, but I’ve been cursed to have no absolute talent or luck when it comes to games. Heck I don’t even have games on my iPhone because I can barely get pass the score of 600 on Fruit Ninja LOL. I really suck when it comes to games. My brain processes at the speed of a baby tortoise.
Moving on from the whole gaming part of my life, I’m going on full swing with my gym workout again. Spent about 45 minutes at the gym today, just working on my supersets and boy it was mad tiring. It’s really important to either switch up your workout or take sometime off to allow your body to snap out of plateau. I’m probably gonna train myself to sleep earlier too in order to gym in morning. I’m a morning person! I usually wake up feeling happy unless I have nightmares about Brownthepom dying in my dreams. That would totally ruin my day. Why would I even have such horrid dreams to begin with?
Being decisive may have its perks but it may have its hidden consequences too. I believe that you can never walk away from someone you truly love, trust and someone who makes you heart beat a million times quicker whenever they’re around. I ain’t no soldier of fortune but I always hold on to what makes me feel alive. I was doing some heavy reading/research on architectural works online. Whenever I stumble upon a good design project, I get this sudden zap of excitement going through my system. I’m such a weirdo, right? A motivated, directed subconscious mind is very powerful. I’ve discovered that the subconscious mind is scarily awesome. For example, I tend to remember tiny details especially when its architecturally related or directions) because I have this great fear of feeling lost and claustrophobia. So the subconscious part of my mind might have acknowledged my fear I reckon and somehow ‘downloaded’ the necessary details to prevent myself from ever getting lost or trapped.
I reckon that the same thing works when it comes to relationship. If you’re subconsciously fearing that everyone is out there is out to get you or cheat, you’re probably gonna stay unhappy for a long time because you might just end up sending out signals that you’re unfit to be in a trusting relationship even if you consciously try to portray confidence. What I’m trying to address here is the need to just be honest with yourself. Acknowledge your fears, pick up a pen, list it down in bullet points and then stop. Read through it and you will feel a gazillion times better, I promise. Self-denial is the worst because you will be unreachable. Sometimes its hard to let go off the past, we try to hold on to the familiar; drowning deeper and deeper till you’re willing to start kickin’ your way back up to the surface. It’s basic survival instinct. We get back up when we’re ready to take on the world again. When we decide that life and love has so much to offer if we allow nature to take its course. If there’s one thing you should know about me, I DON’T QUIT. I fight for things worth fighting for and I always stand up for what I believe in. I appreciate and value people based on their sincerity, principles and good values. Look into their hearts, not their eyes.
Selfies on Sunday
“You have the ability to have and do whatever you want if you satisfy all the conditions that will allow you to use your powerful mind to its full potential. You first have to be aware of what you want. The next step is to desire what you want. The next step involves your beliefs. If your beliefs will allow the situation to occur, it will. But if your beliefs will not allow it to occur, you won’t do it. This is why the idea of subconscious programming is so important. It is the mechanism by which your old thought processes can be changed so you will have new beliefs. You can succeed with no problem once you understand the power of your mind, and use it for the purpose it was created for: to give you everything and anything you want in life.
The subconscious mind acts as the translator to the conscious mind. It is given commands by the conscious mind and fulfills those commands with ease. The subconscious mind is also referred to as the go-between between the conscious and super-conscious mind.In order to program your mind to do what you want it to do, you first have to understand the subconscious mind and how it works, or you won’t know how to program the mind. You must learn how to control the subconscious mind so you can learn how to reprogram it. Only then will you have the ability to achieve personal development and reach the empowerment that only your mind can give you. Once you reach this plateau, you will be able to command anyone and get anything you want. Only then will you have fulfilled your dreams of living your life to the fullest. And what is so special about the procedure is that it really does not take long to perform the exercises you need to gain control and reprogram the subconscious mind.” [source]
Kokoro Ramen @Lonsdale Street.
Dessert Story @Swanston Street.
Roti telur @Mamak.
Maggi Goreng @Mamak.
Mister Close @Bourke Street, but entrance via Swanston Street.
A really good hot chocolate.
I can’t get over this burger. I’m not a huge fan of burgers but this was fairly ‘light’ and the name of the cafe was……………. CHEERIO!!!
Thanks for reading. I should hit the sack soon or else I won’t be able to hit the gym in the morning. The last thing on my mind? I hope that someday love will find its way back to me when I’m ready for it. Its true that time heals all wounds, and surprisingly I’m no longer wounded, in pain, or miserable. I’m really surprised to how much I’ve changed over the years when it comes to coping with grief. I can gladly say that I’m given my best and I have no regrets. Past is past. What lies ahead is far more exciting and besides, my birthday is coming soooooooooooooooon!